YM was blocked

my ym was blocked by the anti virus provided by the office.. eh bkit ako nagagalit? kasi im using my personal laptop on my work, eh nag bloblock sila ng mga application na sa akin lang.. astig eh no? is this their laptop? katuwa.. hindi na nga ako gumagamit ng asset ng office to do my job, ganito pa gagawin di ba? sino ba namang hindi maiinis sa ginagawa nila.. hay.. anyways, i already sent an email to the person in the IT if there will be any way that it will be removed from the script their using on my personal laptop, kasi personal nga di ba? ahahha

and also, ayun, i asked them to install the softphone na rin on my machine since i will be on leave starting Wednesday till next week.. ^_^

ewan ko ba sa IT anong ginagawa nila.. ahahha.. sana lang matapos na ito bukas.. if they wont allow my YM, then i will request for an office laptop na gumagana at hindi nagloloko.. and i hope na madali lang iyon.. hayz..

at the embassy again...

i went at the embassy again yesterday. my plan was to get an OEC so that i wont pay the tax anymore when leaving Manila when i go home. so armed with my employment contract and my passport, we went to the embassy and straight to Window A. i asked the guy there, we need an OEC. then he asked me if i have my OWWA daw, so my answered was, "OWWA?".. tapos he replied na they need it daw kasi para malaman kung till kelan ung contract namin dito. so i said our work is a permanent job. so sabi nya they still need it kasi hindi naman daw puede na permanent. ang kulit di ba? hanggang bukas ung kompanya nandito ako and as long as they need my service. sabi nya wala daw permanent.. nakakainis.. dun ako nainis.. ikaw kuya!!! ikaw!! hindi ka dapat permanent sa position na yan... bwiset ka..

i dont also like the way you deliver your message.. para naman kaming illegal worker. eh hello. kayo nga nasa ibang bansa na kayo nanghihingi pa kayo ng lagay.. magbago naman kayo.

so sabi ko sa kasama ko, kausapin ung babae dun, and sabihin na OEC lagn need namin, walang philhealth, walang OWWA or whatsoever.. tapos un nga, sabi daw magbabayad daw kami since wala kami ng OWWA card. sabi pa, "ano ba namang mga OFW ito".. sabay tanong sa kasabay namin "ikaw, alam mo ba ung OWWA card?", sinagot naman ni ate ng "hindi., ano iyon?"..

so sabi ko sa kasama ko alis na lang kami.. magbabayad na lang ako sa airport ng tax... ok lang iyon.. mas maluwag pa sa loob, kesa sa hassle na binibigay nila. nakakainis kasi.,. basta naiinis ako.. sayang ung effort sa knila..

kahit kailan talaga ang ahensya ng gobyerno.. saan mang lupalop mapadpad.. meron at meron talagang sumisira.. tsktsk

praning!

grabe! napraning ako nung saturday night. as in sobrang kapraningan.. why naman kasi.. last saturday kasi we watched a movie with the team. Gamer and G Force. then we ate at Chilis. then napag kwentuhan ang mga kababalaghan.. as in sari sari na. all in all na. at pag nalaman pa ko. but better not to talk about it na lang.. ahahah

so nung matutulog na, dahil ata sa mga kwentuhan namin, napraning ako ng sobra. feeling ko nakapikit ang mata ko pero ang senses ko bukas lahat. at feel na feel ko bawat sulok ng kwarto. and natatakot ako. so ginawa ko nagsaksak ako ng earphones sa phone ko at nagpatugtog ng mp3. pero ung thought sa utak ko nakakainis.. kaya dun ako natatakot. eh when i think pa naman ung worst scenario talaga. so sabi ko matutulog na ko, then nag CR muna ko and when i came back ganun pa rin. iyong tipong malamig ung paa ko, as in nanlalamig na ako sa takot at kaba. so anong ginawa ko? nagbasa ako ng BIBLE ulit. oh my god! as in.. lahat ng puedeng basahin regarding sa situation ko nabasa ko na ata. and when i said na ayoko na, lord gusto ko na pong matulog, nahimbing na ko ng maiigi.

iyon ung time na nakatulog na ko sa pagod.

first time ever na nangyari sa akin un. ung tipong gusto ko ng umiyak sa mga naiisip ko at natatakot ako, gusto ko ng mangatok ng ibang kwarto. pero un nga buti na lang nakatulog na rin ako. and mas payapa na ko ngaun..

lord help me.. ayaw ko ng ganung pakiramdam.. :D

hindi ako PLASTIC!

at hindi ako marunong magpaka plastic! nakikita sa mukha ko kung inis na ko. ramdam sa bawat galaw ko kapag hindi ko gusto. oh eh ano naman ngaun? mundo ko ito eh. wala lang pakialamanan. lahat ng tao my sumpong meron din ako.

my kasama kami sa work, lately kasi parang nawiwili na cyang magpasa ng magpasa ng work. pagawa dito, pagawa kay ganyan, hanapin mo ung file na hinahanap nya ganito ganyan. alam naman natin na hindi ganyan magwork ang pinoy. siguro medyo nainis na lang ako sa ganung gawain. iyong tipong pasa ng pasa ng trabaho. walang masamang magtanong, pero iyong tipong iyong tao na un na ung naggagawa ng work, well iba na iyon di ba?

eto, my pinasa kasi cyang work sakin. my aattend-an na meeting then gagawin ung dapat gawin. magmomove ng bagong customer sa Production. so maraming dapat gawin. so cge lang! go! ako na daw gumawa kasi ako naman nag perform ng Technical Review. okay cge, so ibig sabihin tatlo RTP ko na hawak.

multi tasking ako along the way, wala pa namang meeting. so habang nagbabasa ako ng document para sa isa kong RTP, bigla cyang lumapit sa table ko. sabi nya sa akin "dial 1-800 balh blah" na medyo malapit sa phone ko na tipong gusto nya cya na magdial or maybe cya na nga ung pipindot. sabi ko "wait", my iniisip kasi ako sa binabasa ko at puno ang utak ko. sabi nya ulit "dial 1800 blah blah" at talagang cya na pipindot sa phone ko.

so dun na ko medyo nainis. naintindihan ko naman ano sinabi nya di ba. one is enough two is too much. grabedad naman. hindi naman ako bobo para di ko maintindihan ung sinabi nya, ultimo mga ordinaryong tao sa pinas alam ibig sabihin nun.

at dahil sa inis ko nga, napasabi ako ng "WAIT" as in CAPS lock! ramdam mo na my inis ako. ahahah.. so bigla cyang "oops, sorry". so umalis cya sa tabi ko at ginambala naman ung isang kasama ko. so nung dumaan ulit cya sa cube ko, well ganun na ulit, sinulat na lagn nya ung number sa document ko, and eto malupet, ako ung nasa last discussion! lolz.. excited to the maximum level kasi.

hindi naman sa nanghuhusga ako, pero cguro napuno na rin ako, at my mga bagay na kong hindi gusto na nakikita sa kanya. oo, marami cyang ginagawa. marami rin kaming ginagawa. buti nga cya isang application lang hawak nya. eh ako? ilan ba? 3 application ang sinusupport ko. pero narinig ba nya akong nagreklamo sa gawain ko? hindi naman di ba? naiinis ako sa mga problema ng application ko at sa mga tao na gumagawa ng problema ko, pero di ako nagrereklamo sa trabaho ko.

bad na ba ako? lolz

T'eksi and Drivers

ang kwentong ito ay ang pakikipagsapalaran ko sa mga teksi ng Malaysia at sa mga driver nito

sa totoo lang, mas better pa ang taxi service sa pinas compared dito. alam mo ng mahal ang ibabayad mo pero ung mga ugali talaga nila napipikon ako.

90% ng mga taxi dito pag ung pinara mo lang, pepresyuhan ka. oo, though my meter naman sila. presyo na times 3 or 2 ng ordinary meter charge. ang nakakainis pa, hirap ka na ngang makipag usap sa kanila, sila pa ang maarte.. grrrr!

eto pa, pag morning kumuha kami ng taxi sa my bus stop, sasabihin nila 5 RM na agad, mga 65 pesos na un, para sa 2-3 kilometers na takbo. at ang malupet sa bus stop ka rin ibaba!! naka naman oh! kaya nga nagtaxi di ba? ayaw ko ng maglakad papasok sa loob ng compound ng condo dahil sa puyat ako. kaya nga taxi is para ihahatid ka san mo gustong pumunta. katamaran nga naman!

tapos sasabihan ka pa, when you take the bus you will pay 1 RM, so i will just drop you at the bus stop. kainis di ba? GAHAMAN mga taxi driver dito. gahaman na kung sa gahaman. at ang pinaka mahirap my ATTITUDE problem. sinabayan pa ko.. bwiset!

Checking OUT and IN

this is the continuation of my hotel experience here in MY. so review muna. first check-in ko sa sunway pyramid then after that check out from there and transfer to Sunway Duplex. so 1 week in Hotel and the rest of the month in Duplex.

first night i got a problem. why? di ba nga ung credit card ko. they want me to pay the rental from my personal credit card eh di ba nga the company will shoulder the expenses on that hotel, eh iyon. then good thing gumana ung bpi card ko, kasi mga max out na card ko - i know im a spender. so i got in on the first night, the second night same scenario. what they did is to activate my keycard just for a night and i need to go to the receptionist everyday just to check if my keycard is activated or not. cyempre iyong mga things ko nandun sa loob eh. so the first day ko sa office, i told the HR what happened. i know that there is a miscommunication on this one. and i experience the hassle that it have. and i dont like it so much!!!! hahahaha.. i am so broke that time tapos my mga ganung issue pa,. hayz talaga.

so the day came na magchecheck out na ko. and i need to transfer sa kabilang unit which is the Duplex. eto ang malupet, i need to check pa rin daw sa receptionist what time i can check out cause the other unit (Duplex) will be clean first before i transfer, so they told me mga hapon daw. so okay with me. i went to the mall muna (sa baba lang ng hotel) and watched a movie and i just told the receptionist to call me when i am ready to transfer. so habang nanonood ako tumawag! ahaha,. sabi ko later na lang mga 6 PM. so iyon. buti na lang magchecheck out na ko sa hassle na hotel na iyon.

so nasa lobby na ung luggage ko, then ung guy from the Duplex nandun din,. eh kilala ko cya kasi regular ako sa Duplex and nakikitulog din ako sa mga kasama ko, hehee, so nilapitan ko cya sabi nya my guest daw sila na magchecheck-in and wait daw kami ng bagong sundo. sabi ko sino winewait nyo? and he told me my name! ahahaha.. sabi ko ako po iyon. magtatransfer na ko sa Duplex, kasi kala nya taga duplex na ko dahil lagi nya akong nakikita dun. so ayun nga..

pagdating ng Duplex, tour sa loob which is i know already what to expect dahil nga sa regular ako sa ibang unit. so wala ng masyadong explanation at all. and un lang, need ulit nila ng credit card for deposit, sabi ko full na both ng card ko. i'll pay na lang in cash if ever need my bayaran pag check out. eh di pumayag naman cya.. ehehhe..

so sa Duplecx, i chose the Master's Bedroom. ako lang muna kasi ung nandun. the following day pa kasi darating ung mga kasama ko ring Pinoy. hehehe.. at ito ang malupet sa room na iyon. SIRA ang AIRCON!!! dalawang aircon na un ah, hindi nya mapalamig ung room sa temperature na gusto ko (16 degrees). hay naman talaga. pero okay na rin naman kesa sa Sunway. hehehe..

mas feel kong at home ako. naging smooth naman ung pag stay ko sa Duplex compared sa Sunway. hehee..

for pictures.. click here:

Sunway Hotel Pictures

Sunway Duplex Pictures

enjoy!

the TRAIN

at maling train ang nasakyan ko pabalik ng house! lolz.. kasi naman i did not read the sign in front of the train and i forgot that it has two directions going back to my place. sorry naman, tao lang. why i know na maling train ung nasakyan ko? there was this station na parang central station, parang that station is the one na magsasabing okay from this point two directions na, eh i know that the train i should take should go to the overpass going to the right side eh the train went underpass and went to the left side. so compose pa rin ang modelo, then i check the map inside the train whats the next station, so the train suddenly stopped, eh hindi naman ako puedeng basta basta bumaba, so i checked the next station, then i told myself na kapag ang name ng station is this one, bababa ako ng train and go back. true enough, i am on the wrong train! ahahah.. kasi another thing, medyo mapuno sa part na iyon, parang masukal. ganun. so bumalik ako ng platform sa kabilang side to take my turn going back di ba, and pagbalik ko ng central station my train sa kabila, and i think iyon ang train na dapat kong sakyan, so sumakay na ko (even though im not sure 100 percent kasi baka bumalik ako sa KL, and ung isang train na sinakyan ko ang papuntang KL, so again ang burden ko dito is baka pabalik cya sa maling way kasi di ko nakita ung sign sa harap ng train,. ahahah), so standby ako sa loob ng train, and im making sure na nakatingin ako sa daan and dapat magtuturn right cya, so okay naman.. kasi nakauwi din ako after,. hehehe

at least ive learned a lesson from riding that train, its just that i forgot that train has two lines going back. :)

Government Agencies

did you ever experience a delay in the services of any government agencies? iyong tipong they are not touching your papers for some reason, one is there are people inside who are too lazy to move and process the papers in time. it was like they're gonna work on this tomorrow because its already quarter to five, situations like that. nakakainis no?

the main reason why ako naiinis is because my plan is not falling into its places. and why? because of the fu**ing embassy of the philippines in malaysia. nakakainis. sobra. its been a month since we signed the paper and ready for processing but until now we dont have any news (well we do have - the paper is still with the embassy). guys!!! move!! work!!! dont fool around.. there are some people here waiting for their job abroad. another reason for you to be ashame of. a lot of people are working abroad to profit more for their kind of job they are doing. these are the people na sabi nyo nga are helping the economy, but what kind of services do you offer?

im still thinking. gano ba kalala ang corruption sa government? pano ba ang pamamalakad ng mga ahensyang ito? alam ko kasi kailangan "maglagay" ka sa nasa loob para bumilis ng "konti" ung papers mo. when i say konti mga less than a week. sanay na ko dyan. hindi lang ako kundi ang sambayanang pilipino.

hindi ko rin alam what are the processes that is included in their system. pero ang tagal kasi. nababagalan ako. its been a month! and hindi ako sanay ng walang ginagawa guys.. and dahil sa mabagal nyong pagkilos - wala.. bum muna kmi for a while.

sana lang before 25, makaalis ako. the SOONER the BETTER..

merong mga pangarap na naghihintay ng katuparan pero dahil sa serbisyong ibinibigay ng gobyerno ay nahahadlangan.

D.E. for HIRE?

bkit my ganung title? bakit for hiRe? callboy ba ko? hindi naman ah. lolz!!! pero cyempre my kwento sa likod ng title na yan.. it happened last thursday..

i woke up past 9 am, wag ng kumontra - programmer at flexi ang oras sa work, so nagprepare na ko for my work. naka aalis ako ng house magte-10 am na.. mabilis pa rin akong kumilos kahit papano.. ahahaha.. since magteten na and marami akong gagawin sa office - BUSY and MAP DEV ngaun - sabi ko magcacab na lang ako. so punta ako sa kanto kung san daanan ng mga cab.

so eto na:
pagdating ko sa kanto, sakto my cab pero nilampasan ako. eh sa intersection before ng kantong kinatatayuan ko, traffic pa and ipit pa ung mga sasakyan.. take note at this time i have a earphone on my both ears, so medyo mahina at my sariling mundo ako. tapos biglang my mabagal na REVO na parating. next is huminto cya sa tapat ko.. akala ko naman magtatanong ng direction kasi baka nga naman nawawala. so binaba nya ng konti ung window sa my passenger seat and he was murmuring something, so i remove my earphone and said yes?.. lumapit na rin ako ng konti but not sa mismong tapat ng car nya para lang marinig ko ng maiigi ung sinasabi nya. so eto na sumagot na si manong, and he said "do you need a ride? ng padiretso?" so cyempre ako nagulat talaga di ba. so i quickly replied na "ay no, hindi po".. so umalis na cya and ang bagal pa din ng takbo nya..

and good thing nag go na ung mga car dun sa intersection and nakapara agad ako ng cab within one minute.

kamusta naman di ba? ano bang mali sa suot ko? naka slacks, naka leather shoes, naka long sleeves, mukha ba kong callboy na pinipick up lang? well, un lang naman naiisip ko at bakit ako hinintuan ni manong, unless mabuti talaga cyang tao at nag offer lang ng free ride. pero nah, hindi po ako sumasama ng basta basta.. my pambayad naman po ako ng cab that time. ^_^

nakakatawa kasi first time kong magawan ng ganun. i said nga dati pag mejo late na umuuwi and someone asks me kung pano ko uuwi, i replied na tatayo na lang ako sa kanto and maghihintay ng car na magbababa ng window and papahatid na lang ako.. lolz. but i never imagined that it will happened talaga..

so iyon.,. lastly - mali lang ng timing si manong.. kasi umaga un! ahahaha.. programmer po ako sa umaga.. baka sa gabi pa natapat un, puede.. lolz.. if the price is right.. half a million.. bwahahhaa

Lavandera

my nagcomment sa blog ko na anonymous at nag-iwan ng pangalan na -Lavandera Mo-. the comment has been made on my post about missing clothes times two.

here's the complete comment posted on my blog:

I don't think it's fair enough to judge a small business that they're getting clothes(expensive clothes)from customers. I've been in the laundry business for more than 3 years now and sometimes there are really cases that clients will look for their clothes even if they were delivered few weeks ago.
We do have a checklist and we list all the clothes that we received from a certain customer before we wash them, that is to be sure that we won't miss anything.

-Lavandera Mo-

just to make it clear, i never directly mentioned in my post na the laundry shop itself is the culprit of taking my clothes. ang sabi ko po dun, nawawalan na naman ako ng damit. and i dont know why it happened. as you've said nga po, yes there is a list and i am aware of that. i actually see that list. and when i made a report to the branch, the lady asked me if the piece that is missing is in the list. i said yes. nakita ko cya na nandun sa list. but dun sa mga damit, wala talaga. that is why i made a report and told them about what happened. i also described the cardigan, how it looks like, the color and the brand itself. ang sabi nung una, take note that they told me this, naalala daw nung girl na my inalis na damit sa plastic ng mga damit ko kasi "medyo basa" pa daw - which is ung cardigan nga dahil medyo makapal ung damit na un. tapos nung bumalik na ko sa branch para itanong kung nasan na ung damit (the time that they told me na inalis daw sa plastic ung damit is wala daw dun ung taong nag alis, tatanungin pa daw), sabi daw nung tao is binalik na daw sa plastic ko ung damit na iyon. but wala nga talaga.

unang una, hindi po ako mageeffort magpunta sa branch na iyon at maglakad para lang magreklamo ng hindi naman totoo. and secondly, im not that type of person po. i will gain nothing if i do that. and hindi ko ugaling magsuot ng damit ng ibang tao. its never been a practice of me. iyong mga damit ko is pinapa-pick up ko sa kanila, so there is really no reason para pumunta ako sa branch na iyon ng wala talagang importanteng gagawin.

the lady got my cell number, sabi nya bibigyan daw nya ko ng update sa nangyari sa damit ko. so i waited and waited. ayoko ng tumawag kasi i will get nothing naman sa pakikipag usap sa kanya at mapipikon lang ako. wala rin namang resulta lagi - based sa mga dumaan na araw.

first week of december 2009 when it happened. march 2009 na. my nakuha ba kong text or tawag from Lavadera Mo kahit isa? WALA po. sabi ko nga sa girl, kahit ung Cardigan na lang ung ibalik, wag na ung boxer shorts. kahit hidni na makita iyon, pero wala na talaga akong nakuhang response from them. and i know si ate na nagpipick up ng damit ko, hindi na ganon ka-accomodating and based sa facial expression nya parang napipikon cya at naiinis. ako din naiinis but im trying to control it. bilang pag respeto sa nakatatanda sa akin. i never shouted kahit sino sa staff. maayos akong nakipag usap. iyon nga lang, wala talaga akong nakuhang response mula sa kanila. at hindi na bumalik iyong damit na hinahanap ko.

puedeng napasama sa ibang customer ung damit ko. there is a possibility. hindi ko alam. and for now, ayun po ung sagot ko sa comment na nasa itaas.

missing clothes times two

cyempre hindi lang naganap ng isang beses kundi dalawa na. ang alin? ang pagkawala ng aking damit sa laundry shop. hindi ko talga alam kung bakit. atsaka puede ba next time ung mga pambahay na lang kunin nila? ang galing din nila mamili ah.

sa first laundry shop na pinagdalahan ko ng damit ko was ung malapit sa apartment. bagong lipat pa lang kami nun. so ilang beses ako nagpalaba, then nung last time na, nawala na ung damit ko na binili ko sa US (alam ko na ung Van Heussen na damit) color black. so i told the laundry and hahanapin daw, 3 days after wala pa rin. so sabi ko anong gagawin dun? wala na di na raw makita. di bale next time daw kapag my nawala pa, babayaran na lang daw. eh hello? sa tingin nyo ba magpapalaba pa ko ulit? thinking na di ko alam kelan ako mawawalan ulit ako ng damit. so next na pinalabhan ko mga towels ko lang. and they keep asking me kung nasan na daw ung mga damit ko (bulk kasi iyon) so sabi ko di ko po ipapalaba sa inyo kasi takot ako mawalan ulit. hahahha.. sinabi ko talga iyon sa harap ni ate at rinig ng kasama nya. and i also told them na - hindi ko naman po kasi dito sa pilipinas binili ung damit na iyon eh, sa US pa po and hindi naman po kasi 400 or 500 ang presyo nun nasa thousand po. umandar na naman ung pagiging demonyo ko. so sa sinabi ni ate, sabi nya cya na daw bahala sa damit ko kahit daw ihand wash nya pero same pa rin ung bayad. pero sabi ko hindi na po, iyong towel na lang. hehehe.. after that di na ko bumalik dun...

and lastly, sa lavandera mo nawalan na ko! oh my.. kamusta naman! after ilang beses akong magpalaba ngaun pa ko nawalan. tsktsk.. hay buhay. ano naman ang nawala this time? ung cardigan ko from pierre cardin and ung isa kong boxer short. actually ung isa ko pang socks na tommy nawawalan ng partner. nyeta naman kasi. ewan ko ah.. hahhaa.. di ko alam bakit nawawala.. naiinis ako sa sinasabi nilang kumpleto un nung nilagay sa plastic kasi nakalista ung mga damit at pati brand, eh alangan namang itago ko iyong damit ko.

so ngaun hahanapin daw ulit nila. and actually di ko pa binibigay damit ko sa knila until di nila nakikita un. 1k din halaga ng damit na un. nakakainis. naiinis ako kasi di ko naman pinupulot ang perang pambili ng mga damit ko na yan. ok pa cguro kung mga pambahay ko ung kunin nila. okay lang. cge go. pero cyempre cno nga ba naman kukuha ng pambahay na damit di ba? dun na ko sa puedeng ipang-alis.

di ko alam anong meron talga sa mga laundry shop. and ayoko naman na maglaba ng mga damit ko. kung puedeng magbayad - magbayad na lang.. hhahahaha..

Gutom.. Antok.. Pagod..

gutom na ko... 8:47 am nasa office pa rin ako.. 12 oras na ko nasa loob ng opisina.. ang kinain ko pa lang? isang large fries, isang venti caramel frap with one shot of espresso, and ung ensaladang mangga...

antok na ko dahil kahapon pa ko gising, ni idlip di ko pa nagagawa.. at bawal naman dahil hindi ko alam kung anong oras darating ang mga sagot na hinihintay ko...

Pagod dahil sa kakulangan ng tulog.. para na kong nakalutang sa hangin...

my gala pa ko.. kape na lang ang bubuhay sa araw kong ito para di naman nakakahiya sa kaibigang kikitain ko mamaya...

i do feel bad...now!

naiinis ako.. naiinis ako dahil nasa sitwasyon ako na hindi ko naman ginusto. nasa sitwasyon ako na nakakabasa ako ng email na hindi maganda sa pandinig ko.. im just doing what is instructed to me on what to do. prinint ko pa nga ung email na un.

pumasok ako ng maaga sa opisina. 8:30 pa lang nand2 na ko pero ang gagawin kong deployment past 11 na.. bakit ako maaga? alam kong mabagal magbukas ang msd, aabutin ako ng oras sa pagbubukas pa lang nito.

una kong ginawa is magback up. back up kung sakaling my di magandang mangyari sa gagawin ko, meron pa ring sasalo - dahil production nga ito.

pagkatapos kong maback up lahat ng kailangan at dapat iback-up, ginawa ko na ang email na una kong isesend.. naka standby lang cya dahil baka my magbago sa sitwasyon. baka merong dumating na file na magpabago sa takbo ng email na iyon.. 11:45 ganun pa rin ang nasa database... at 11:50 pm Manila Time sinend ko na ang email na ginawa ko.. una pa lang ito sa lahat ng gagawin ko..

cguro my isang instruction sa kin na hindi naging malinaw.. ng napag isipan ko na puedeng dalawa ang ibig sabihin o pakahulugan nito, nagtanong agad ako.. kala ko pag naka down na dun pa lang ako magdedeploy - pero puede ring pagka force stop dun na ang deployment. pagkatapos nito, ginawa ko na ang sumunod na dapat gawin.. DEPLOYMENT.. pagkatapos ng hang dito hang doon ng laptop na ito dahil sa network connection, nakapagdeploy din ako...

EMAIL sent! para malaman ng lahat na nagawa ko na ang deployment.. isa - dalawang oras ang lumipas.. ang mga counterparts nageemail na! ano na daw ang status ganito ganyan.. teka!!! nag email nga ako ng mga status di ba?

my isang email pa na sakin lang naka To kung nadeploy ko daw ba. at merong email sa tatlong team na nagtatanong ng status..

Nagpantig lang ang tenga ko dito sa email na ito:

" If I don’t hear anything from anyone on  the next 5 minutes, I will start calling managers, up to and including the General Manager of Manila."

parang Hello! di ko ba ginawa trabaho ko? nagawa ko naman lahat ng dapat gawin ah.. 

nakakainis lang.. hindi ako natutuwa.. parang sobra kung manisi. tatanggapin ko po kung my kasalanan ako.. cge na.. ako na ang mali.. nagalit ang kliyente..  pero nagsorry din naman sa huli dahil nga sa late na dating ng mga emails.....

tapos ngaun, mageemail ka ng "Thanks for the update Edward"..

Pasensya na, pero the damage has been done... alam ko hamak na empleyado lang ako.. ewan... sarado utak ko ngaun.. ayokong mag entertain ng ibang ideas.. sa ngaun eto lang muna ang gusto kong isipin..

alas kuwatro y media ng madaling araw - nagugutom pa ko.. magsabay sabay na! BRING IT oN!

of Globe and Sony Ericsson

okay, first thing first. i got a new phone ayt? A Sony Ericsson w960i. Its good, i mean when you check the image, the phone model, the rating, it will bypassed some of the high end phones. And this one will meet most of my needs im looking for in a phone (PDA). and before i bought it, i "googled" the internet and looked for a PDA phone or the likes unit. i compared it to PDA phones manufactured by HP, Dopod, HTC and the least, NOKIA. i can say that between the phones that i've checked, the Sony Ericsson passed my standard.

Design, Capability, Speed, Functionality. Based on ratings, its exceeds the passing grade and almost make it to the highest. And i just love Sony Ericsson, that my phone will last for years.

And now lets talk about Globe. I have this prepaid number that im using for four or five years already. This is my number ever since my collage days. And on my old textmate days.. lolz!.

Some of my friends told me that they cannot reached me on my mobile. I did not put any attention to it, since i can receive text messages from them and from all - bible verses everyday, subscriptions to globe, etc etc. And lastly, i can make a call.. So how come they cant contact me on my number.

Last night, when a friend of mine tried to make an overseas call, the person told me that my number is not working. That was the time i reported it to Globe. I dont know what happened to this stuff. All i know is that this number is working perfectly fine.

What i found out when i talked to the CSR of Globe is that my roaming services are still active? How come? Im in the country na since June and from that time I already made calls. hmm, something is wrong. I said to the agent that i called before to deactivate it. And i already called them twice because of another problem and the agent also found out that my roaming services are active. This will be the third time they will be deactivating it.

Right now, i need to wait 3 to 7 days on the report of the Technical Team of Globe what went wrong on my account to them. All the agent (as always) is "sorry for the inconvenience it costs you", sigh..

Last thing, maybe that is also the reason why i cannot use my phone as a modem. 

Tip: when using your prepaid number in Internet connection (when your phone is capable - meaning it comes with modem - and u can use it as one), you need to register the number to Globe so they will grant access to the number for you to surf the internet.

i have 3g network and i can connect to the gateway, but my homepage isnt loading. weird huh. dont know why. i need to fix it one by one. For now, i need to fix my account with Globe.

btw, i asked them if i can have a line with them but with the same number (actually i already know that it wasnt possible, but i was just trying my luck) and my knowledge serves me right. well, i told them that i always got a problem when i go back here in the country with their roaming services.  

So this is it for now. my account on Globe to be fixed.

last thing, a lot of customers of Globe are i think having problems with their Iphone. i wonder why? cause i've read from other sites that they always have a problem with it, especially with Globe.

And the big question now is, WHY oh WHY? Globe, can your ever loyal customers get an answer from you?

DO we need to switch now to other Networks? tsktsk.. sayang naman ang pitong taon nating pinagsamahan..

Grande Island - Summary

this is just a summary of our barkada outing last weekend.. okay - lets start!

Friday night - sa apartment natulog sina Ate Russ, Maybelle and Josche. late na rin natulog dahil nanood kami ng DVD (Caregiver). nice nung movie. natulog ng around past 2. or mag 3 am na ata un. nag empake na rin ng sobrang damit.

Saturday - last akong gumising.. i know. sabik ako sa tulog eh. un na un.. then after maghanda ng mga gamit at makaligo, kumain ng breakfast sa Jollibee. right after that bumalik ng apartment para kuhanin na lahat ng gamit. nagtaxi papunta sa terminal ng Victory Liner sa Pasay.

8:30 am umalis na ung bus going to Olongapo. 12:00 noon dumating ng Olongapo ung bus. Since dun naman ako nag college, alam ko ang papunta sa loob ng base. hahahah.. sumakay ng dilaw na jeep, kumain sa Greenwich, naghanap ng masasakyan na van papunta sa pier kung san sasakay kami ng yacht or bangka(?) papunta sa Island. kinuha ung food na dala namin kasi bwal daw. so nilagay sa locker nila.

past 3 pm dumaong na sa isla ung yate, nahilo ako sa byahe. nakakahilo ung 45 mins na ride. ang gulo gulo pa sa front desk. marami akong reklamo. nagkakagulo sila na parang walang concentrated na staff sa iyo. parang labo labo na..

nung nakuha na namin ung room key nagbihis na at naligo ako sa dagat. ako lang muna! hahaha.. excited eh. then naligo kami sa pool nila na malaki. daming koreano. hahaha..

after that naligo na sa dagat, naglaro ng sand castle. tapos naligo and nagdinner.

the following day:

morning - breakfast - solved.
nag ATV kami. twice ako umulit.. hahaha.. kasi merong sobrang ticket ginamit ko na. then after that nag banana boat kami. twice din ako sumakay dahil sobra ulit ng isa ung ticket namin.. hahaha.. lucky me.

after that ligo sa dagat and prepare na going back to Manila.

nagcheck out sa hotel na magulo na naman at nawawalan daw kami ng isang towel sa tatlong room namin. 600 daw ung bayad. nakipag usap pa ko in not so very good manner.

umalis ung yate pabalik ng olongapo 1:30 na ata.
nag lunch sa gerrys. then naglakad sa loob ng subic and then pumunta kami ng station ng bus para makabalik ng manila.

4 pm nakasakay na kami ng bus pabalik ng manila. 7:30 nasa manila na kami. :)

Residence Inn Tallahassee North/I-10 Capital Circle

Name of the Hotel: Residence Inn by Marriott
Branch: Residence Inn Tallahassee North/I-10 Capital Circle
City: Tallahassee
State: Florida

Comments: Missing things inside our rooms. 2 cameras, watch, clothes, and quarters.

Just please have an extra time to think if you're going to stay at this hotel, based on our experience we lost things while we are not inside the room.

we reported the first stuff that was lost a month ago (G9 camera), and the action was only this week and we even dont know who is the suspect. the manager didnt even tell us about this.

Missing: G9 Camera, Canon Camera, Fossil Silver watch, Polo, Quarters (in different rooms we are renting).

What would they expect from us??? i emailed the customer service of Marriott feeling that the manager here is doing nothing.

just want to make a report about the hotel that im staying right now. Residence Inn I10, Tallahassee Fl.
We are losing things at this hotel lately. A month ago, a digicam from one of our rented room was missing. It is
placed inside the drawer. The second item missing was my watch. It is placed on the bedside table. The third time, a
camera also from our group, clothes on the fourth time, and on the fifth time its MONEY.
I dont know whats happening here when we are in the office, we are currently renting more than 5 rooms here for a
business visit, but with whats happening recently, IT IS NOT ACCEPTABLE!!!
The fact that someone is entering the room when we are not present is not a right thing to do. Who else have the
access to the room aside from us? who can give key card to gain access to our rooms? Why all these things are
happening to our group? Dont they stand by your hotel name "MARRIOTT"? that when you say youre staying at Marriott,
you are safe and secured at their premises? what will be the next item that will be lost? Every room that we have,
we have something that is missing.
When we reported the missing camera, we waited for more than a month before they make any action or if they are
doing any action up to now.
The group are still staying at this hotel but with THE FEAR THAT EVERYTIME WE GET OUT OF THE ROOM AND THE TIME WE
COME BACK, SOMETHING IS MISSING AGAIN!!!!..
Could you please investigate whats happening with your branch here????
The manager said that the hotel is not liable for any loss... If the area is secured and no one is entering our
room, nothing will be missing, and thats for sure...
Should we still keep in mind that when other people say they are staying at Marriott they are not in good hands and
place?
Please have this incident investigated up to the upper management. I dont like what the culprit is doing to us. And
its happening to your hotel premises..

We need an immediate action on this..
Im not gonna say thank you because of the incidents happening with my stay here and my group.

and what they answered to me:

Dear Edward Santos,

Thank you for contacting Marriott Customer Care regarding the Residence Inn Tallahassee North/I-10 Capital Circle. Please accept our apology for the frustration you experienced.

Our records indicate that you are currently a guest in the hotel. We have contacted Yvonne Burks, the General Manager, and requested that you are contacted as soon as possible to ensure that your concerns are addressed.

Thank you again for taking the time to share your concerns. Feedback from guests such as yourself helps us to provide the outstanding service for which Marriott is known. We look forward to welcoming you again soon.

If we can be of further assistance, we invite you to reply to this email.

Thank you for choosing Marriott.

Regards,
Marriott Customer Care

kamusta naman di ba? after a month nga na nireport walang ginawa, ano yan? parang sorry na lang? Pun**** sila.. nanggigigil ako sa totoo lang...

the time na nwala watch ko, i did not report it. sabi ko baka namisplace ko lang or nalagay ko lang d2. but then, i already packed all my things and my watch is not showing up. ano un? the last time na nakita ko un was on my bedside table. and now it is gone, magaling cyang pumili ng relo ah.. sa mga relo ko na nasa table, iyon pa ung kinuha.. PI ka!!


when i lost my watch, hindi ko na nireport because sabi ko relo lang naman iyon, my mga nabili naman akong bago. but then, when the time na pera na ung nawawala ANO NA ITO??? GAGUHAN sa loob ng hotel?? ninanakawan ka sa loob ng kwarto mo sa hotel???

aun ung time na bumaba na ko sa front desk and confronted the staff. sobrang tindi na ng galit ko, dahil hindi na ko natutuwa.. ang daming nawawala tapos sa grupo lang namin? ano ito? lokohan? Target nyo kami? well, wait lang kung ano na magaganap sa mga susunod na araw...

sa tingin nyo ba babalik pa ko sa Marriott?? peste! at sagutin ka pa ng manager na we are not liable for any loss in your room.. PI ka! sino ba my access sa kwarto namin? eh wala naman kami dun? SINO PA??!! SINO??!! pakisagot nga! my sagot pa na, "i can give you back the quarters". hay naku.. grrr! nakakapangigil ng laman.

hindi ako palamurang tao, pero this time ang sarap magmura sa mga taong katulad nila!!!

blogging from orange park

blogging from orange park, florida. left tallahassee at 7 in the morning with only 3 hours of sleep because we left the office at past 12 saturday morning and then prepared my clothes that i will use here.

we went to St. Augustine Outlet Malls and i bought 3 new pair of shoes, watch, clothes, bags and jackets. :D

also, we went to castillo de san marcos(?) in st augustine. had a picture and tour for a little bit of the oldest city in the United States. it's a city for honeymooners (is there such a word, nevermind). then i made a crazy thing because when we were in the grass with a slope, i tried to roll down and gotcha! hahahha.. nice try.. ill try to do that again, next time.

last place that weve been to before going back here is to Jacksonville. why? to buy my laptop, it was such a race of time since we left st augustine at past eight in the evening and the stores usually closes at nine pm. and the distance is more than 20 miles. fortunately enough for me cause we still reached the store open. unfortunately for me because the model of the laptop that i want is out of stock.. kamusta naman! gusto ko ng maluha. with all the effort that we exerted. anyways, there is still tomorrow and there is another branch that have stock.

so now, had a good dinner. and ready to take a bath and then take a good long sleep for a very long day tomorrow.

and oh! another thing, when i checked my watch at my bedside table, it is missing. i dont know where it is right now and i just wish that i just misplaced it since one of my friends lost her camera in her hotel room. need to do an inventory of all the things that i bought here especially the gifts..


total shoes as of now: 12 pairs. 2 pairs from Manila, 10 pairs bought in here. ;)

PAL - Puro Asa Lang (Part 1)

"Mabuhay! Welcome to Philippine Airlines. Asia's First Airline.."

ayan ang mga katagang babati sa iyo once you called the PAL contact number here sa US. At bakit ang title eh Puro Asa Lang? eh kasi naman! hahaha..

*paalala medyo my kahabaan ang laman ng entry na ito.

back track..
Philippines - week of our flight going here sa US.
We received our e-ticket and then checked their website if we can make a seat reservation online.
Tada! High tech ang site.. walang reservation ek ek. Sobra sa pagka high tech. pero cyempre hindi ako papayag ng ganun ganun lang un,. i need to make sure na sa window seat ako uupo. next, got an email address wherein i can contact PAL. okay. email. email.
email sent.

email:

"I will be flying out to Los Angeles.
I have a problem that whenever i seat in the middle of the plane, i feel suffocated.
So what i need is a seat beside the window mostly on the wing or before the wing area (front).
"

new message received.

"You now have a seat assignment 46a."

reply ulit ako:


"Thanks for your suggestion.
But on the other hand, will it possible for me to seat at any rows: 26 to 28.? As long as beside the window? That is my safest place (on my own perception) inside the plane, wing area and beside the window."

cyempre niresearch ko na anong plane ang gagamitin nila, since there are two types of plane PAL is using for flying to Los Angeles.

message received:
TUMAWAG NA DAW AKO SA RESERVATION OFFICE NILA!!!! EFFORT....

i requested for window seat. why? because feeling suffocated ako once i am seated in the middle or iyong seat sa aisle. eroplano, bus or whatever pa yan. need ko ng nakikita ko ang labas. sa eroplano kahit puro ulap ayos na! basta alam kong merong labas. my fear pag nakukulong? medyo. :p

so sagot sagot sa email. sabi ko we are eight people travelling and it would make a difference if were going to reserve our seat immediately para bawas hassle. puro papers na lang then boom! nasa plane ka na ng walang kaabog abog. puro smile lang! :)

and i got a good response naman. row 46 daw kami sa plane going to Los Angeles. so were all set.

Flight Date:
NAIA Terminal 2. text ko mga kasama ko nasan na sila. since ako lang mag isa pumunta ng airport (walang pamilyang maghahatid, nagpatakwil ako remember?), hinanap ko agad sila. nung pumasok na kami sa airport, pagdating namin ng counter ng PAL, potek! ang tagal ng proceso. walang barcode ang e-ticket para scan na lang. then print ng tag sa mga maleta. then LAYAS na sa harap ng counter. eh dito?! it took us 20 years of our life!!! JOKE! hahaha.. mga less than 30 minutes din un i guess. kasi hindi ko alam kung ano pa vineverify nila. baka daw kasabwat ako sa mga krimen na nagaganap sa Pilipinas. baka chineck din nila sa NBI kung my kaso ako. eh kaso wala naman silang napala, MALINIS ang pagkatao ko.. wahahhaa.. :p
next step, i asked them ano seat number ko. blah blah.. HALA! ano daw?!!!! iba na seat number ko???? kala ko ba my reservation na kami????!!! WHAT HAPPENED!!!!!.. nasa my buntot na daw kami.. ay POTEK nga naman oh! hilo to the max ito! ano ba yan.. NAIINIS AKO.. pero composed pa rin ako cyempre.. sayang ang porma ko eh, bago pa naman lahat. hahahaha.. :p
okay, its my turn. ano sabi ko sa staff na nasa counter? eto:

"i reserved a seat for 8 people and our seat number is rows 46 to 48, left side on the left wing".

reply nya:

"sorry sir pero my mga nauna na po kayong kasama na nakapasok and nabigay na po sa iba ung remaining seats".

NAGPANTIG tenga ko (composed pa rin kahit namumula na ko). sa madaling salita, walang silbi ang reservation mo sa kanila. it is a first come first serve basis. (Cebu Pacific ba kayo?!). since my nauna na sa goup namin and were not complete upon checking-in, kung sino lang ung nandun the first time our group checked-in, un lang ung seat na mabibigay sa amin. eh huli kamign nag checked-in. MUSTA PAL?!!!!! paki explain nga.. cyempre di pa rin ako papatalo.. MAHADERO kaya ako..

"Can i request for a window seat? Kasi nahihilo ako pag nasa aisle ako. and i dont like the feeling. And this trip is more than 12 hours long".

Reply nya:

"Okay. I made that already for you".

Kala mo nakabawi ka na?! hindi pa.. dahil nilagay mo ko sa buntot! potek! hilo ito!

eto malupet!
BOARDING TIME...

ang flight schedule 10:30 dapat naka take off na ang plane. (well, Cathay, Air Asia and Cebu Pacific is on-time nung sumakay ako).
okay, so wait pa kami sa loob dahil wala pang 10:30. then nung pumila na kami and pagpasok sa eroplano binati kami ni ate:

"Mabuhay".

Cyempre ngiti lang ako. Modelo eh.


Pag-upo ko sa upuan ko sa DULO (ine-emphasize ko sa DULO), aba parang there is something wrong sa loob ng plane.
Ano iyon????? WALANG AIRCON!!!!!!! SWEAT ALERT! SWEAT ALERT!!! naka long sleeves ako and naka jacket.. potek!
so upo lang ako, lahat kami sa loob nagpapaypay. hay..then they made an announcement pa regarding sa aircon. na they are using their ground electricity and eto malupet. "We will turn-on the AIRCON once we are stable up in the AIR"..

ANO DAW!!!!

my magagawa ba ko?! wala.. ngiti at reklamo na kala mo mabaet.
so un nga, after 20 minutes sa air, dun lang nagka aircon. pero wag ka. eto pa!

10:30 na, ang plane was still on the land. LATE???!!! my dadating atang plane and they cannot use the runway. no ba yan..
and talaga we waited there. nag park pa ang plane sa dulo ng runway then ikot then yun na sabay TAKE OFF!!!!..

pagdating sa taas, nagreklamo na ang MODELO at MAHADERO..

"Nakabukas na po ba ang aircon ng plane? kasi MEDYO mainit po eh".

parang gusto nyang sabihin:

"Naka long sleeves and jacket po kayo. try nyo pong magsando at kung di kayo lamigin sa eroplano"..

wahahha.. kala mo ah.. pero nope, what she told me was:

"ill check the temperature and then lets see what i can do". BAET ni ate..

Pag alis pa lang ng PILIPINAS yan.. wait sa second part!!! :)

masama ba kung tumulong ako?

of course not! im just being kind to other people.. this afternoon kasi while waiting for others at the side door of the hotel, eh its raining and we dont have the key of the car, so we waited there for a few minutes. 15 mins or more i think, then there is this couple entered the door and go directly to their room in the first floor. eh kita naman ung hallway ng side ng hotel na un, then nakita namin cya. he said na "the card is not working" referring to the keycard of their hotel room and nakatingin cya sa amin even his wife. so i guess he is talking to us. and he also said maybe it is because of the rain. so ang mabaet na edward "umepal". bakit epal? i told the guy to go to the frontdesk and have his key fix. ang sagot ng lolo mo? "i know what to do". FINE.. barado ako.. im just helping.. natatawa na nga mga kasama ko.. then the guy spoke again, "i just dont want to get out and get wet of the rain". hindi pa rin ako natinag. ang sagot ko, "there's a way over there (inside) going to the front desk.". wag kasing tanga.. JOKE! hahaha.. then he said "Thank You". aun.. so quits na cya.. FINE.

hay.. mga tao talga dito.. last thursday naman, sa hospital my tinanong kami sa doctor (another story na ung hospital), then sabi ng doctor, "youre my patient (referring to our officemate), youre the one who ask questions and i will answer. cause theres a lot of people here. im not gonna answer their questions." sobrang baet ni dok! hahaha.. miss ko mga doktor sa pinas.. hehehe..
then ung nurse naman, sobrang busy ata. parang wala sa sarili. binigay ung gamot ng friend namin, then ako nagtanong how many tablets are we going to buy in the pharmacy and till when he (friend) is going to take the meds. (buti na lang meron akong OJT sa hospital) hahaha.. sabi nya babalik daw cya. fine. then pagbalik nya my kausap na ung friend namin sa phone. sabi nung nurse, "ok, ill be back cause i have other patient to take care". FINE ate.. hahaha..

walang sincerity ang mga nurse at doctor dito.. PERA pERA ang labanan.. hehehe ;)

been good.. now bad..

am i good? or bad? gotcha! been a good boy before with no marks of being a bad guy. but now is a totally different story.

the good side of me:
im mabaet naman before. my lola was my guardian, though i have a father. pero he has his own second family three years after my mom died. we're not rich nor poor as i say. kasi we eat naman three times a day. and the life before was totally different with the life that we experience nowadays (im talking in general - mahal na lahat ngaun pati bigas my krisis). okay. im so grateful to my lola na she taught me a lot of things. kahit personality wise, it really help me even today. what kind of son i was before? takot akong gumawa ng mali. my takot ako sa loob ng katawan na everytime i did something wrong there is an equal punishment. my mali lang akong masulat sa notebook ko during elementary days, my father scolded me for the small thing that ive done wrong. when he saw me playing, he will asked me why am i playing, and will ask me if i dont have an assigment to do? blah blah.. and of course, before i play ive already did my part. i know my resposibility. mabaet ako kung sa mabaet dati. like i am always on the right side. on the top list. with good people and friends sorrounding me, people that will not do wrong but always good. baet ko no? of course my takot pag gumawa ng mali.

but with this kind of life that i had, i have grudges. i have anger in my heart. im trying to release and forget it, but im only human that it cant be easily remove from my system.

with all the medals and the recognition that i received during elementary days was not enough to make him proud of what ive achieved and never did i remember that he said to me na he is proud of my achievement. im always on my own and my lola. i even remembered during my elementary graduation, my tita pa who bought my clothes and prepared it for me. *grudges attack.. hahaha..

i graduated third honor in elementary - thanks to one point advantage. i enrolled myself in high school all through out from first year to fourth year. and i stayed and maintain my grades to be in section one. i enrolled myself in a public high school because when i went to the private school and inquire slashed ready to enroll myself i forgot my card in elementary which is their requirement. and good thing though i dont feel good about the school cause there is two man smoking in front of the gate. as a freshman it gave me a bad image and reputation of the school. i just followed my cousin in a public high school. bad thing though is that im not anymore in the top five, nor in the top ten. i dont know. hahaha.. but i do know in myself that i am in the top 20 percent of the class. hahaha.. my nakita kaya akong paper na pang eleven ako.. nyahahhaa.. pero it makes me feel bad kasi parang im so bobo na that time,. but i do accept the fact na its not my time and its just okay, i told myself.

college - i went to Columban College for a year and a half to study Computer Science and then i asked my tita to tell my father to let me go and study in the Metro and live with my cousin whom i can say have a more stable life. it was a hard time asking for that thing cause i know he wont let me go for a fact that i dont know. even before i went to college i already asked him to allow me to go to Manila to earn my college degree, but to no avail. FINE.. binabagsak ko na nga exam ko eh. pero ayaw pa din ni God. ito namang Columban sabi ko ComSci kukunin ko, sabi ba naman mag Engineering daw ako dahil pasok ang entrance exam result ko sa course na un.. Pede ba, pede ba.. okay.. i took the course for a year and a half and then the time came na pumayag na rin ang dakila kong ama na sa Maynila ko na ipagpatuloy ang college ko..

Manila - hindi ako ang naghanap ng school ko, its my cousin na guy. he was the one na nanguha ng mga brochure and of course kung san macredit ung mga natake ko ng subjects. and one thing, university is a BIG NO NO! why? because of the ROTC! seryoso! kaya ayoko ng university is dahil jan sa lecheng ROTC na yan.. di kaya ako makanood ng 5 and up pag linggo dahil sa subject na yan! hahaha.. and nangingitim na ko.. too bad for me.

so sa STI ako napadpad. ok naman. i continued my study in STI with the same course. dito ko na feel na i can do it. na i have something inside and the capability to stand on my own and above the rest. ngek. bakit my ganun?! hahaha.. wala lang.. sa STI ko naregain ung negative zero self-esteem ko and ung confidence level ko. i just feel proud when i got good grades and of course high scores on my exams. but i keep it to myself. after two years of studying in Manila, dun lang ako kinumusta ng tatay ko.. kamusta naman un? but dont you worry i dont feel that i do have a father, because since then i feel that i am alone in this game called life but of course with my lola.

years passed and 2005 came. i graduated college with honors. pero seriously speaking i dont know that im running for laude. kasi nasa school lang ako pag my klase ako, ganun lang. but thanks to all my professors who believe in me. especially Ma'am Alley Dioso - our Dean and para ko na ring nanay. she gave me advises and she knows my story.

ung tatay ko i cant remember if he text me that time. not sure na. basta ang sabi ko, pag pumunta cya sa graduation ko di ako aakyat ng stage, cya kumuha ng medal ko mag isa. hahaha.. now im turning into a bad person. its just the start of all.

i went here sa US last year ng di nagpapa alam sa kanya cause i dont feel the need to do that. right after my lola died, i feel like i am alone and its only me in this world. thats the effect of teaching your son the word - INDEPENDENT.

yes. I live my life now INDEPENDENTLY. hindi na ko nakikitira sa mga kamag anak ko right after they told me bad words na i feel i dont deserve cause i did not do anything wrong for them to react like that. they bad mouthed me but yet i keep my silence. i dont feel the urge to explain cause maybe im just tired of explaining myself cause in the end it is still their mind who will prevail on what they wanted to think about me.

BAD edward. yes i am bad now. wala na kong pamilya. di na ko nagpaparamdam sa knila. im living with my friends. i pay for my food, my space. lahat ako na. and i feel like it should be. this is the life that i want. the FREEDOM that i never had. the FEAR that i have is lost. cause i feel that i have the POWER now to conquer everything. that i can do anything.

my family on my mother side is fine. i have a good relationship with them pa rin naman since i am the first apo and they know the whole story and the reason why i feel and act like this nowadays.

i miss my LOLA. sobra! she is the only person that can understand and accept me for whatever things i do. right or wrong. it is from her where i feel i was loved. not on my own father or brothers. it was only HER. i know na she protect and guide me everyday. pero i MISS her na sobra. if she is only alive at this moment wherein i regain myself and on this status, im gonna let her feel that im so thankful for all the things that she did to me when i was still a little edward. im gonna give her everything without asking. 'La miss na kita.. :(

BAD - i am a BAD person now to my family and i dont care. Really. I will let other people think whatever they want to think about me. I cant control their mind.

My father said before nung maglalayas ako ( i was in grade two that time):
"Just make sure when he leave this house, he brings all his stuff!".
- little did he know that i heard this? and what is the effect of this words to the mind of a little child?

i came to a point in my life where i wanna end my journey. i wanna kill myself. i wanna END my LIFE. nakalapat na nga ang cutter sa wrist ko eh. but thank you kay God. i realize na its not worth it. i just let them win. na i proved to them that i am nothing.

mas close ung relationship ko kay God at this point in my life, because He is the one always there for me aside from my lola.

Thankful ako sa kung anong meron ako ngaun at kung nasang estado man ako ng buhay ko. I dont care with what other people think of me. if you think that i am over confident and too mayabang, i dont care if youre not my friend.

At the end, it is still between ME and my LORD GOD. Thank You God for everything.
For protecting me and guiding me. For lending to me these talents that i use in my life. :)

sa mga taong nakasakit sa kin, im trying to erase and remove the anger and grudges in my heart. but as ive said im only human. TIME will heal WOUNDS.

LET the TIME do ITS JOB to HEAL the WOUND in ME that OTHER PEOPLE MADE.

at the moment, im just enjoying my life and living it up to the fullest! GodBless!