crazy me

one thing that is not good about me is when i dont wanna talk to some people or to certain people. its my characteristic na eversince high school. i do have this barkada eversince first year high school in the province, we were in a public school so all of the type of students were there. good thing though that im in the section one and i can say that we're good students.

kaya lang, this barkada of mine pinagtripan nila ko. im the type of person pa naman na pag nagjoke kau and kulitan time di ako mapipikon. but that time was so different. ako pinagtripan nilang itago ung bag and my other things. so when i asked them kung nasan ito they did not give it to me until the time na nabadtrip na ko and i know na hindi nila gustong nababadtrip ako. hindi ako iyong tipo ng tao na kapag nabadtrip hindi uso ang konting lambing lang and were back to normal again.

so anong ginawa ko sa mga kaibigan ko na iyon? HINDI KO SILA KINAUSAP ng BUONG SCHOOL YEAR. even if we belong on the same class, kahit makasalubong ko sila sa corridor ng building, seems like i dont see them. sabi ko nga pakialam ko. kaibigan kita dati pero ginawan mo ko ng ganito. i also have other circle of friends. mabaet naman akong tao.

if you will analyze it, simple lang naman. pinagtripan, nagalit, nag sorry, dapat ok na di ba? but not with me. i think differently sa mga ganitong bagay.

another kwento was iyong story about the yellow paper. when i go to school i make sure na i have all the things that i need. ayoko kasi ng nanghihingi or nanghihiram. that day was our periodical test sa science, 2nd year high school section mangga. thanks to my memory. hehehe
umatake that time iyong sumpong ko, sabi ko this time ako naman manghihingi, hindi iyong lagi na lang magbibigay. so nanghingi ako ng paper sa mga kaibigan ko. dun pa kasi nila ako pinaupo sa upuan na malapit sa kanila. pero up to test 1 na wala silang binigay na papel. sumama loob ko nun. talagang sabi ko bakit pag ako im giving all of what i have to my friends but what do i get in return? hindi sa nagsusumbat ako or what, but sinumpong lang ako that time na ako naman ung manghingi.

up to fourth year di ko sila kinausap, even classmates kami from first year to fourth year. and i even made them cry because of the petty misunderstanding that we had. and i dont care about it that time.

di ko rin alam bakit ako ganun. pero i can control that naman eh, especially now at my age. mahaba naman ung patience ko, but the problem is wag lang matitiyempuhan or masasagad ung pasensya na iyon.

sa mga ganitong pangyayari ako lang ang makakapag sabi kung kelan kita gustong kausapin. alam ko ung right time when it comes on my way.

on the two examples above - i talked to my barkada both in 4th year na. nung malapit na ung graduation. and im the one who did the first move. and thank god na up to this day were still friends and we are just laughing on what we had on our high school days. a lot of changes had happened both physically and mentally speaking.

the lesson of the story:
i have the patience in talking to other people, i can be kind to those who are kind to me but i can be the devilish person you will ever know if you did not treat me good. as what i say and observed: "people are being bad because of the people around them. even the kindest person has his limits. and he changed to a person he can never imagined".

people come and go into our life. and i treasure those people who remain my friends. new people are coming in our way and we get excited because they are new. but as the time goes by, they will be like your old schoolmates or classmates - shining on the first time you met but losing its glow as the time you started knowing them.

so how to maintain the glow? ask my high school friends. they know the answer.

and why am i able of doing these things? simple. i can play with my emotions. not all the time im using emotions. sometimes im just being cerebral. no emotions at all. just going with the flow where it will take me.


david.edward signing off..

one serious post to those who i treat as my friends and to those who wants to know me.
i can be such a spoiled brat and act like one, but i know when to trigger this syndrome. better watch out baka kaw na maging next victim ko.! :p

1 comments:

South Park said...

yikes! nakakatakot ka pala :-p