love letter

di ko alam why im doing this pero cguro its god's way of giving me the guts to explain things to you. di mo man ito basahin or burahin mo once you saw my name or kung binura mo na from your phonebook number ko sa inbox mo. i chose to text you na lang sa cp mo, kahit papano alam ko katabi mo yan matulog, kasi if ipapadala ko yun via email baka sa office mo pa mabasa. At least ano man maging reaction mo sa sasabihin ko, would only be between you and your room. 
Ayokong makita ka nilang malungkot. Ikaw iyong Edward na nagpapasaya sa kanila. And i dont want them to see the clown cry because of some selfish girls fault. I read your blog and kung alam mo lang kung gano ang regrets na binasa ko pa cya..
It made me feel na ako na yata ang pinkamasamang babae sa mundo. Kung bakit dahil sa takot na ginawa ng ibang tao, natakot ako magtiwala, natakot akong maging masyado kang mahalaga sa akin. 
Kris Bernal's pics nga, ung kung anuman ung pinadala ko sa iyo. If you saved them cya nga un, except for two pics, ung dalawang pixs na my butterfly sa face. That was me when i was in 4th year high school. Kris Samantha Bernal or Kris Bernal as many know her is my cousin sa mother side. Thats why i have access to her pixs.
Iyong dalawang pixs na un, those two real pixs, di mo lang alam how you made me happy nung sinabi mong iyon ang favorite pixs mo. You chose me from a girl with star material.
Its heaven way cguro of telling me na i should have love myself more because people love me as I am and not a person who hides under somebody else's face.
Sa iyo ko natutunan ang salitang RESPETO. you give me the respect any woman would wish for. I flirted you to death, pero you remained composed and polite, a gentleman in your own right.
Edward, isa ka sa pinakamahalagang tao na masasabi kong dumaan sa buhay ko. Kasi ang dami mong itinuro sa akin na cguro kahit sa next life ko hindi ko matututunan mag isa. And if i would have to live my life again i would still choose the path na nakilala kita. even if letting go of your company would be this painful for both of us.
If one day would come and i would finally see you in flesh, i would thank you for being a big part of my life. Hindi ko alam kung paniniwalaan mo pa lahat ng pinagsasabi ko ngaun. 
All i can say, sa bawat letra nyan, cguro kahit every character at space pa comes from the bottom of my heart with my fingerprints pa on it. Godbless sa lahat ng endeavors. 
Sana someday you would find someone who could be with you sa lahat ng plans na yan. tulad ng mga maps na ginagawa mo araw-araw, magkaroon na rin ng itinerary yang life mo, a path for you and for your love one. 
Mag iingat ka palagi. Ung sarili mo alagaan mo, wag ka magpapabaya ah. Godbless ulit. Luck is something that may or may not occur, but God is for sure. 
Be the loving person you always are, marami nagmamahal sa iyo... and Edward.... I MISS you..

so where is she right now? di ko alam after almost two years of no communication at all..

2 comments:

RJ said...

Aba! Naging Open Love Letter! Nabasa kaya niya ito rito sa Geeky Thoughts?

ikay said...

hmmm... love letter.. hmm...