lovelife. i was dreaming of a happy family someday though i did not have one. i never had a girlfriend. or maybe i was looking for a boyfriend?(hahah...joke) i thought this one is serious? hahha..ok.. let us go back to the story, i never had a girlfriend, though i have crushes in school before. why? dont know why. maybe i was not looking for one. i was just waiting for the right one to come into my life. some people say that i was lying when i told them that i never had even a girlfriend. i was just wishing for a happy family, that when i will have a girlfriend, i want her to be the first and the last. im not just looking for a girlfriend to have something to brag. i want a girlfriend whom i can be proud and at least i can say that she is my first and last girlfriend. that i want to share my life with her. i want to continue this journey of life with her, that im reaching my whole being to her. someone that will accept me for being who i am. for what i am and because she accepted the whole me.
its okay for me to get hurt. its part of the cycle and its okay for me have such pain than other people. i dont know where i get that idea. that i should be the one who should get hurt than the people taht i love, than the people that i cared about. its okay for me to have a heartache cause i know that time will heal the wound. that i will never seek a revenge for what people did to me. it hurts i know, but for just some time. the wound taht only the heart feel, will heal by time.
to the people that have touched my life and gave me a lesson, thank you very much. i know i wouldnt be this strong if not because of you. thank you and thank you.
to my friends whom i cared and treasure, thank you for being there for me when i was down and when i was in cloud 9. i was such a transparent person. and to dennis. i can also feel pain, sorry taht for the first time you saw me sad, that youre not used to it. that you told me you never saw me like taht. im just a human, i also have a limitation.
and to the people who made me feel special, who meade my heart beat faster than the normal rate, thank you for makign me feel that, even not for a lifetime. i dont know when God will give my better half. im just waiting, but heart also its limitation. do i sound bitter here? nah. i just told you that im just a human.
or is this the right time to enter the seminary? to reconnect with God and serve Him?
but that will be unfair to His part. i will just serve Him just because my life wasnt fair. i do want to enter one profession because im running out of the problem from my previous kind of life. i think it would end up here. my life is with god. He knows everything what will be good to me. Godbless us All..
this post will be some sort of a serious one. why? basta..
first thing is my relation to my god. i know that my relation to Him right now is not like before. not like what i have last year. i dont know when it all started and how it all started. i just feel this way.
i remember that i felt so bad before when i lost my pendant, i think taht is the time or the start of it but im not sure. satan is working on me. nah, lord help me.
then reading the bible before going to sleep is not my hobby anymore. i did not do it now. i cant remember when was the last time i opened my bible and read it. that was too long ago. tsk tsk
sinner edward. i really hope that lord will back me to what i am before. i really miss it.
second, i changed. i know that i changed. and some people already notice it. i, myself notice it. and i dont know why. maybe its because of the environment, it should be one of the factor. one of my text friend ( cause we do not see each other pa, just an online friend), noticed it actually, he just said that why im acting this way, why did i change? what happened to the old edward taht he knew. that he met before. i just said that people change. nothing is permanent in this world but change. he said that i was too far different from the old edward. and he told me that maybe im an impostor and just using my ym and just do that nasty things to my friends. well, this is the real me.
when one people is too kind, some of the people around him/her might abuse and use that person for their own personal sake. i love helping people, but sometimes that help has been taken for granted. that someone will text me and ask for a load, you gave them on the first time, second and third time, but he/she will just text you when they need load. i treat them as a friend. i treat everybody as my friend. but sometimes, those people abuse me. and i cant blame them for that, maybe it was also my fault that i treated them like that. that i was too kind enough for them to do that things.
well, i was still the same edward. ill try to be kind and behave again, just help me to hide the evil in me. when my friedns are happy, im happy for them. they are my family.
also, other topic that has been opened is about friend. that text friend told me that he treat me as a friend. and i answered back on one of his message that i treat you as a friend but not a close friend cause we do not see each other, and i explained to him this:
"i can say that i have a lot of friends, which is true. but i only have close friends which are true".
did you get my point? i can have a lot of friends in this world, but only few whom i can say that they are my true and close friends. when you know something about me and about my past and you accpeted me for being what i am, i can say that you are my true and close friend cause you know that part of my life. what ive been through. not all of my friends know my story, some of them just think that im like this and that. but do you really know the real me? maybe not. maybe yes. try me.
i bought the external hard disk yesterday, and thank god to the SL pay. i mean our Sick Leaves are converterd into cash. but can you imagine, the TAX that they got from me is more than "four thousand pesos" . grabe! and a total of more than "six thousand pesos" in one payroll. aside from the tax from our SL, the usual tax from our salary every payday. ang laki ng binawas nila! and i really felt bad about it. i mean, we should pay our tax but not that high. sigh. so un.
i finished my one week night shift. and i can say, kaya pa. hehehe.. and there was one incident, i sent a message through a communicator ( office communicator) to one person, our counterpart and told him that i have a query about my project that night. and he asked me if i was in Manila ( he was from the US), and i answered yes and he also asked what time is it, so i also answered 3 am. then he told me "what are you working so early?". hahaha.. and i replied taht we are on a night shift doing projects and to suppport. hahaha.. he just said cool.. :p
till here.. david edward
i finished my one week night shift. and i can say, kaya pa. hehehe.. and there was one incident, i sent a message through a communicator ( office communicator) to one person, our counterpart and told him that i have a query about my project that night. and he asked me if i was in Manila ( he was from the US), and i answered yes and he also asked what time is it, so i also answered 3 am. then he told me "what are you working so early?". hahaha.. and i replied taht we are on a night shift doing projects and to suppport. hahaha.. he just said cool.. :p
till here.. david edward
i just got home and had my breakfast. and right now im here in front of the computer and typing this entry. new? yep! cause this will be the first time that im going to post from home. well, its just that we have a DSL connection. actually, its not an issue to me either we have an internet at home or not. because at the office, i can surf the net with no cost. and my nieces are just renting or sometimes buy an internet card to use the internet at home. and i just got news. the maids (the mother and the daughter) will be leaving today and ate asked me after i took a bath if i can check their bagages. and now i can look for my lost things! ahahahaha... joke,. im just gonna check it and no more. and i wish they did not get nothing from us.
about my work, well kinda hectic the past 4 days of my night shift. we dont have a break. we continue working the whole shift so that the work gets done. but the problem is our counterparts. i dont know what do they want, sigh. its so hard na to think especially at the middle of the night that your brain surrender from functioning. sigh..
till here.. david edward signing off...
nasa ikatlong araw na ko ng aking night shift. mejo okay okay naman. kaya lang cyempre hindi naman maiiwasan na minsan eh antukin ka in the middle of your shift. kahit na natulog ako from 10 am to 6 pm. imagine, that is 8 hours of sleep. but what makes the difference? it is the environment around us. in the morning, there are lot of people around us, nagkakagulo d2 sa office. maingay. but now, were only 4 from our teams, and we are so silent. hahaha.. so what would you expect? even me, i admit that when silence attacks, i cant help but to close my eyes and have a rest. but of course bawal. hehehe.. dami pa naming gagawin, kakainis kasi ung client eh.
about my sleep naman, i always wake up around 3 pm. eh i need to have more sleep para hindi ako antukin,. eh nakakainis lang kasi eh. ewan ko ba sa katawan ko. hehehe
about my sleep naman, i always wake up around 3 pm. eh i need to have more sleep para hindi ako antukin,. eh nakakainis lang kasi eh. ewan ko ba sa katawan ko. hehehe
God said, . . . and it was so. – Genesis 1:9
The words are repeated several times in Genesis 1, the story of creation: "And it was so."
Whatever God said – it happened. "Let there be light . . . Let there be a firmament . . . Let the earth bring forth grass . . . " Then, each time, the words: "And it was so." God spoke the words, and it became a reality.
As I read about this beginning of our world and the power of God, I started to think about some other things God and His Son Jesus have said – things we can count on.
When Jesus was talking about His followers, He said, "I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; neither shall anyone snatch them out of My hand" (John 10:28). If we have put our trust in Him, we can be assured that we have eternal life right now and will live with Him forever.
The writer to the Hebrews said, "Be content with such things as you have. For [God] Himself has said, ‘I will never leave you nor forsake you’ " (Heb. 13:5). We can be sure that our needs will be met and that we won’t be left alone.
One of Jesus’ most comforting promises is "I will come again and receive you to Myself" (John 14:3). He said it; we can believe it and wait confidently for that day.
Count on God’s word. It will be so. – Anne Cetas
No matter what may come to pass,
God’s precious Word still stands,
This universe is held intact
Within His mighty hands. – Williams
READ: Genesis 1:1-13
God said it, I believe it. That settles it.
The Bible in one year:
• Exodus 12-13
• Matthew 16
I see you, beside me
It's only a dream
A vision of what used to be
The laughter, the sorrow
Pictures in time
Fading to memory
How could I ever let you go
Isn't too late to let it show
That I come to run from your side
But this place I hide
It only reminds me of you
When i turn out of the light
Even the night
It only reminds me of you
I needed my freedom
This what I've thought
But I was a fool to believe
My heart breaks while you cry
Rivers of tears
But I was too blind to see
How could I ever let you go
Isn't too late to let you show
That I come to run from your side
But this place I hide
It only reminds me of you
When I turn out of the light
Even the night
It only reminds me of you
Only you...
Please come back to me
I'm down on my knees
God give me strength...
That I come to run from your side
But this place I hide
It only reminds me of you
When I turn out of the light
Even the night
It only reminds me of you
******
bkit kailangan mo pang magparamdam ulit? i dont know your reason why. and i admit, hindi pa ko nakaka move on. im still trying. still hoping to cope up with what happened.
what a day had passed! it was a night to remember! wee. joke! i dont have an idle time the whole time of my shift and i extended three more hours to do the same work but to no avail. we still did not solve the issue of the status for the 850 and 810 maps. sigh. so to continue now what were doing last night, i hope we will have a better result.
to the visitors, ill try to visit ur blog one at a time.
godbless.. davidedward signing off...
When one says, "I am of Paul," and another, "I am of Apollos," are you not carnal? – 1 Corinthians 3:4-8
Over the years of working with Sports Spectrum magazine, I’ve heard many stories about athletes and the help they receive from spiritual mentors. That relationship is usually helpful, but occasionally it seems that the athlete is not guided toward the true source of divine power.
I interview many athletes who illustrate this point. When I say, "Tell me about your faith," they reply, "Our chaplain really helps us. We know that we can go to him with anything. He is always there for us. We really believe in the chaplain."
I’m glad that the chaplain is there for them, but I’m sad that the name of Jesus is seldom mentioned. It seems that their focus is on the human helper and that their true source of power, Jesus, is being ignored.
We must remember not to let our devotion to a leader replace our devotion to Christ. Paul reminded us that "neither he who plants is anything, nor he who waters, but God who gives the increase" (1 Cor. 3:7). Too often, we put our focus on the leader and not on the One the leader is following.
Are you a leader? Teach people to follow the Savior, not you the servant. Are you a follower? Follow only those who point toward Jesus – not themselves. – Dave Branon
They truly lead who lead by love
And humbly serve the Lord;
Their lives will bear the Spirit’s fruit
And magnify His Word. – D. De Haan
READ: 1 Corinthians 3:4-8
Looking for a leader? Follow the Lord.
The Bible in one year:
• Exodus 7-8
• Matthew 15:1-20
been here at the office since yesterday and to tell you, hindi pa ko naliligo. hmm, i dont smell pa naman that bad, :p.
hindi ko kinyang mag support 24 hours! waaa.. suko ako.. i slept around 6 am, and that makes me 20 hours on duty at work! tsk tsk. and the only amount im gonna receive for that is 400 pesos. no OT pay. just MTR (meal and Transpo) for the 4 hours OT (without pay). not fair? then tell the admins. sigh.
and because of the ngarag factor taht we experienced in trouble shooting the problem of the maps, im not thinking the same way the last hour of my so called "duty". im sending a message for the wrong person, dont know what im typing in MOC. hahha. forgive me folks! its just my mind give up and tell me to rest. and now that i have a more than 2 hours sleep under my cube again, i can go to mall! hahaha.
so lets see, whats waiting for me next week on my night shift. oh did i tell you that i will be on night shift the next two weeks? well, yah. because of the go live of the Henkel HST. to support that thingy and do whatever urgent matters arises that need an attention. so, i think my monday will be challenging, since i have a 2 new map to be submitted on that day. sigh. goodluck to poor edward. hahaha.. joke..
so till here. see you, next week.. :)
hindi ko kinyang mag support 24 hours! waaa.. suko ako.. i slept around 6 am, and that makes me 20 hours on duty at work! tsk tsk. and the only amount im gonna receive for that is 400 pesos. no OT pay. just MTR (meal and Transpo) for the 4 hours OT (without pay). not fair? then tell the admins. sigh.
and because of the ngarag factor taht we experienced in trouble shooting the problem of the maps, im not thinking the same way the last hour of my so called "duty". im sending a message for the wrong person, dont know what im typing in MOC. hahha. forgive me folks! its just my mind give up and tell me to rest. and now that i have a more than 2 hours sleep under my cube again, i can go to mall! hahaha.
so lets see, whats waiting for me next week on my night shift. oh did i tell you that i will be on night shift the next two weeks? well, yah. because of the go live of the Henkel HST. to support that thingy and do whatever urgent matters arises that need an attention. so, i think my monday will be challenging, since i have a 2 new map to be submitted on that day. sigh. goodluck to poor edward. hahaha.. joke..
so till here. see you, next week.. :)
A man is not justified by the works of the law. – Galatians 2:16
One thing you have to say about the apostle Paul – he was not a man to mince words. It didn’t matter who it was – a judge, a ruler, or his fellow apostle Peter – Paul said what had to be said. In Galatians 2:16, he made the same point three times: No one is justified by the works of the law.
The law was a critical issue in the early church because many of the converts were Jews. Although they believed in Jesus, some of them just would not let go of their legalistic ways. I imagine hearing them say, "A person can’t be saved unless he is circumcised and refuses to eat meat offered to idols. And no Jewish believer should ever eat with Gentiles." But Paul told them in no uncertain terms that they were wrong. Being made right with God comes by faith, not by any requirements a church or individual adds.
As the author of confusion, Satan finds all kinds of ways to corrupt the gospel by giving us the impression that faith is not enough. He plays into our desire to be in control and to do something to save ourselves – adding anything from tithing to perfect church attendance to clothing styles to entertainment choices. Each of these is important to the believer, but none is essential to salvation.
The point is: Salvation is by faith. – Dave Egner
Lord, I know that salvation is by faith because of Your grace. Help me not to require anything else from myself or others, so that I cannot boast in my goodness – but only in Yours. Amen.
READ: Galatians 2:11-21
Justification: Our guilt gone; Christ’s goodness given.
The Bible in one year:
• Genesis 43-45
• Matthew 12:24-50
The Son of Man has come to seek and to save that which was lost. – Luke 19:10
Zacchaeus was easy to dislike. As a tax collector for an oppressive occupying government, he made himself rich by overcharging his countrymen. Yet, to the consternation of the crowd, Jesus honored him by going to his house and eating with him.
A judge with a reputation for toughness tells how he learned to relate to unlovable people. In a Sunday morning homily his clergyman urged the congregation to try to look at people through the eyes of Jesus.
A few days later the judge was about to give a stiff sentence to an arrogant young man who kept getting in trouble. But then he remembered what the minister had suggested. The judge said, "I looked this young man in the eye and told him I thought he was a bright and talented human being. And then I said to him, ‘Lets talk together about how we can get you living in more creative and constructive ways.’ We had a surprisingly good conversation."
Jesus saw Zacchaeus as a sinner with an empty hole that only He could fill, and through His kindness Zacchaeus was transformed. The judge could not report any such change, but who knows the long-term outcome? He set a good example for all of us, because he saw the man through the eyes of Jesus. – Herb Vander Lugt
We need to see through Jesus’ eyes
Our neighbors who are lost;
For then we will reach out to them,
Regardless of the cost. – Sper
READ: Luke 19:1-10
True compassion will put love into action.
The Bible in one year:
• Genesis 41-42
• Matthew 12:1-23
im so sad.. thinking that i wont be able to buy the hard disk that im planning to. sigh. and its all because is i am a spender! another sigh. now i want to buy that thing but i wont be able to. my cards credit limit was limited, eventhough im going to cash out half the price of it. so now im going to wait more than one week before i can come back to that computer store..
Someday, you'll gonna realize
One day, you'll see this through my eyes
But then I won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if I can't
I know you don't really see my worth
You think you're the last guy on earth
Well, I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long, won't take long
CHORUS
'Cause someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday
But now, I know you can tell
I'm down and I'm not doin' well
But one day, these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry sweet goodbye
CHORUS
'Cause someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place, woh
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, I know someone's gonna be there
Someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday
Ahh yeah yeah
You shall not follow a crowd to do evil; nor shall you testify in a dispute so as to turn aside after many to pervert justice. – Exodus 23:2
In the decades after the assassination of Martin Luther King Jr., the US national holiday established to commemorate his birth has also become a day to remember the cause in which he gave his life.
In the ’50s and ’60s, Dr. King led a nonviolent struggle against racial discrimination and issued a plea for the civil rights of African-Americans. His goal was justice and equality based on human dignity, not skin color.
From Old Testament days until now, God has commanded His people to exercise justice in their dealings with others. "You shall not follow a crowd to do evil; nor shall you testify in a dispute so as to turn aside after many to pervert justice" (Ex. 23:2).
"He has shown you, O man, what is good; and what the Lord require of you but to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God?" (Mic. 6:8).
Jesus rebuked the Pharisees for doing their religious duties while neglecting "justice and the love of God" (Luke 11:42).
To treat people with fairness and integrity is part of our responsibility as Christians. Standing publicly for what is right is required of us as well.
May we honor God by living out truth in action in our world today.
– David McCasland
Justice is the clarion call for Christians –
We cannot step aside from what God said;
He has told us how to treat our neighbor,
And we must follow in the path He’s led.
– Hess
READ: Exodus 23:1-9
God’s standard of justice leaves no room for prejudice.
The Bible in one year:
• Genesis 39-40
• Matthew 11
i dreamt that i am dead. how did it happen? here's the story:
im riding a car (just like a bus or jeep, cant remember exactly) and the place was like BAGUIO. mountains sorrounding the place. and then i decided to go home and rode to this vehicle. and then while it was on our way, the car went fast, approaching a sharp curve, and as i was expecting what to happen, we fell from top of the mountain to the bottom of it. and the feeling was like were floating on air and i told myself, im going to die. cause the height of the slope is too high for a man to live when fell on it. but when we hit the ground, we were alive. dont know what happened. then we go to the church to attend a mass but the priest were looking is not available that time so we decided to left the place.
i dont know what this dream means to me. and i dont know why im having such dreams.
i dont know what this dream means to me. and i dont know why im having such dreams.
Do not let the sun go down on your wrath. – Ephesians 4:26
A little boy got into a fight with his brother and the whole experience left him feeling bitter. When his brother wanted to make things right, he refused to listen. In fact, he would not speak to his brother all day.
Bedtime came, and their mother said to the boy, "Don’t you think you should forgive your brother before you go to sleep? Remember, the Bible says, ‘Do not let the sun go down on your wrath’ " (Eph. 4:26). The boy looked perplexed. He thought for a few moments and then blurted out, "But how can I keep the sun from going down?"
He reminds me of some Christians. They’re angry at certain people and hold grudges. When they are confronted with their unforgiving attitude and urged to make things right, they sidestep the issue and refuse to heed the clear instruction of Scripture. True, we cannot change another person’s heart, but we are responsible for our own attitude. The Bible says, "Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God in Christ forgave you" (Eph. 4:32).
No, we can’t keep the sun from going down. But we can keep it from setting on our anger. And that means we must forgive. – Richard De Haan
Anger, malice, and ill will
Can leave a stain of sorrow;
Ask forgiveness by His grace
Before it is tomorrow? – Bosch
READ: Psalm 4:1-5
For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seconds of happiness.
been here at the office today to arrange some things in proper place. woke up so early, around 7:30 thinking that i only have 5 hours of sleep of what happened last night. - no need to mention here -. went to school with my friend and my schoolmate before and she got her diploma. asking when will be the release of our yearbook but to no avail. went to mega and look around and tomorrow im gonna buy the external hard disk. :)
about the heart problem, i think im okay now., yah, i think so. thinking that youve been fooled by somebody is a better way of recovering. and i know that god will help me on this one.
next stuff to buy will be my mobile phone, maybe next month or end of the month. dont know when. cause right now im having a problem with the keypad of my p9.
hey, bro vince, ill tell when ill be free since i think my sunday will not be available cause ate asked me to play badminton with her.
i think thats it for now. thanks!
david.edward signing off..
addendum:
and to "you-know-who-you-are", i really hope that someday i will know the truth. and only the TRUTH. Godbless..
about the heart problem, i think im okay now., yah, i think so. thinking that youve been fooled by somebody is a better way of recovering. and i know that god will help me on this one.
next stuff to buy will be my mobile phone, maybe next month or end of the month. dont know when. cause right now im having a problem with the keypad of my p9.
hey, bro vince, ill tell when ill be free since i think my sunday will not be available cause ate asked me to play badminton with her.
i think thats it for now. thanks!
david.edward signing off..
addendum:
and to "you-know-who-you-are", i really hope that someday i will know the truth. and only the TRUTH. Godbless..
will be on leave of the office from thursday to friday. so im going to have a 4 days rest.
ingats!
tinext ko rin si "k" last night. actually sa office pa lang magkatext na kami. so una, inaya ko kumain. then nung nakapaligo na ko, nakahiga na sa higaan, tinext ko ulit cya. actually, the purpose of that text is to make kulit lang to her. but then it went on some serious talk. naungkat na naman yung gusto ko cyang makita. ayaw nya talaga. sinabi ko rin sa kanya na kung hindi naman ako seryoso sa kanya, matagal ko na cyang tinigilan. but then, sa May, it is one year already that i know a person that makes me happy. i admit it. iba yung feeling. and then, as our texting went on, she told me to find another that will love me back. but then, i cant. di ba? hope you understand my situation and what i feel. ang tagal kong iningatan yung damdamin na meron ako sa kanya. it come from the bottom of my heart. seryoso ako dun. but then, nung nareceived ko yung isang text nya, hindi ko na alam alin dun, parang shes telling me na to stop. and i told her to meet me and tell it directly to my face and i will accept your decision. hindi raw niya kaya. alam mo yung feeling na ganun? ang bigat! sobra! madilim yung kwarto, nakahiga ka tapos ganun yung situation. parang gusto kong iiyak yun at that moment. ung iyak na coming from the bottom of my heart. ung sobrang lalim ung panggagalingan. 4 na unan nakapaligid sa kin at pede ko mamili ng kahit alin dun para iyakan, pero pinigil ko. pero masakit. then, i asked her if we can talk. and for the first time she accepted my offer to talk to her.
but later daw, for some reason. so ako, lumabas ako ng bahay, (imagine matutulog na lang ako, lumabas ako ng bahay) at nagpunta sa my atm machine and nagload ng phone ko (pero my load naman ako, more than hundred pa). sabi ko kasi kahit magubos ako ng maraming load ok lang. ( cguro nagtataka yung mga guard sa gate bkit ganun yung hitsura ko, hehehe).
nung pabalik na ko and nasa bahay na, i texted her and asked buti pumayag cya na makipag usap sa kin (that will be the first time na mag uusap kami). and then she answered "naaawa na kasi ako sa iyo eh". and that word hit me. iba yung impact sa kin nun, i dont know if my pride was hit by those words. but im sure it made an impact to myself. a big impact. so para akong natulala.
so ginawa ko, naglinis muna ako ng paa, then went straight to the room and nahiga. ano anong idea at isipin ang pumapasok sa king isipan. hindi ko na mawari. tinulog ko yung bigat ng loob na yun. almost one hour din yung tinulog ko, then after na magising ako, ayun na naman. yung pinag usapan na naman namin yung pumapasok sa kukote ko. at hirap na kong makatulog. nagtext oa cya sa kin pero hindi ko na nakuhang magreply, ang tagal ko ding nakatunganga dun at nag iisip ng kung ano ano.
ano nga ba ginagawa ko sa sarili ko? mahigit isang oras akong nakatunganga at hindi ko na namalayang nakatulog na din ako sa wakas. at hindi naging maganda ang aking pagtulog. sobrang babaw.
nakita ko msg nya sakin kaninang madaling araw. tinawagan nya ko ng 3:30 am. nakatulog na ko ng mga oras na iyon.
sa ngayon, cguro tama nga cya. na tumigil na ko. at sana maka move on ako kaagad at makawala sa anumang pinasukan ko.
you entered my system "k". karamihan sa mga text msg mo, nakasave sa phone ko. from the first text that you sent to me, my copy pa ko, and alam mo rin kung gano ako kadepressed when i accidentally deleted our conversation folder in my pc at the office. you know that that messages are important to me.
Ngayon, ganun pa rin yung buhay ko. magpapatuloy. life must go on, di ba? and i just hope that i can get over with the feelings that i have for you. and i know that you read this blog..
magpagaling ka na lang po and wag masyado magpuyat.
Tanong ko lang: Masama ba magmahal? Sobra ba kung magmahal ako?
David Edward signing off.. iiyak muna.. :p
but later daw, for some reason. so ako, lumabas ako ng bahay, (imagine matutulog na lang ako, lumabas ako ng bahay) at nagpunta sa my atm machine and nagload ng phone ko (pero my load naman ako, more than hundred pa). sabi ko kasi kahit magubos ako ng maraming load ok lang. ( cguro nagtataka yung mga guard sa gate bkit ganun yung hitsura ko, hehehe).
nung pabalik na ko and nasa bahay na, i texted her and asked buti pumayag cya na makipag usap sa kin (that will be the first time na mag uusap kami). and then she answered "naaawa na kasi ako sa iyo eh". and that word hit me. iba yung impact sa kin nun, i dont know if my pride was hit by those words. but im sure it made an impact to myself. a big impact. so para akong natulala.
so ginawa ko, naglinis muna ako ng paa, then went straight to the room and nahiga. ano anong idea at isipin ang pumapasok sa king isipan. hindi ko na mawari. tinulog ko yung bigat ng loob na yun. almost one hour din yung tinulog ko, then after na magising ako, ayun na naman. yung pinag usapan na naman namin yung pumapasok sa kukote ko. at hirap na kong makatulog. nagtext oa cya sa kin pero hindi ko na nakuhang magreply, ang tagal ko ding nakatunganga dun at nag iisip ng kung ano ano.
ano nga ba ginagawa ko sa sarili ko? mahigit isang oras akong nakatunganga at hindi ko na namalayang nakatulog na din ako sa wakas. at hindi naging maganda ang aking pagtulog. sobrang babaw.
nakita ko msg nya sakin kaninang madaling araw. tinawagan nya ko ng 3:30 am. nakatulog na ko ng mga oras na iyon.
sa ngayon, cguro tama nga cya. na tumigil na ko. at sana maka move on ako kaagad at makawala sa anumang pinasukan ko.
you entered my system "k". karamihan sa mga text msg mo, nakasave sa phone ko. from the first text that you sent to me, my copy pa ko, and alam mo rin kung gano ako kadepressed when i accidentally deleted our conversation folder in my pc at the office. you know that that messages are important to me.
Ngayon, ganun pa rin yung buhay ko. magpapatuloy. life must go on, di ba? and i just hope that i can get over with the feelings that i have for you. and i know that you read this blog..
magpagaling ka na lang po and wag masyado magpuyat.
Tanong ko lang: Masama ba magmahal? Sobra ba kung magmahal ako?
David Edward signing off.. iiyak muna.. :p
nakarating ako ng house last night past 9 pm na ata, why? kasi dumaan ako sa handyman, i bought locks for the cabinet. and then when i got home, inayos ko yung lock. thanks to ate grace's gift! heehe.. so yun, bingyan kasi ako ni ate grace ng parang swiss knife, so yun na yung ginamit ko and tinatamad na ko maghanap ng malaking screwdriver. mejo natagalan din ako dun sa paggawa and i dont know kung nagkakalyo yung kamay ko, pero feeling ko meron. medyo natagalan ako gawin, kasi hindi sakto yung sukat. bwahaha.. so after i finished doing that, i went downstairs to eat dinner, so after nun, naligo na ko. but hindi pa ko nakatulog agad, bkit? dahil sa kanya "k".
If a man is overtaken in any trespass, you who are spiritual restore such a one in a spirit of gentleness. – Galatians 6:1
Contrary to common belief, the ostrich does not bury its head in the sand to ignore danger. An ostrich can ran at a speed of 45 miles per hour, kick powerfully, and peck aggressively with its beak. As the largest and fastest bird in the world, it doesn’t need to bury its head.
"Burying your head in the sand" is a saying that describes someone who wants to ignore his shortcomings or those of others. The prophet Nathan did not allow King David to forget his sins of adultery and murder (2 Cam. 12:1-14). It took a brave man to confront a king about his errors. Yet Nathan was obedient to God and wise in his approach.
The apostle Paul urged the early church to confront sin. He said, "If a man is overtaken in any trespass, you who are spiritual restore such a one in a spirit of gentleness, considering yourself lest you also be tempted" (Gal. 6:1). We are to confront our brothers and sisters in Christ about their sin with the view of restoring them to fellowship with God. We must also recognize that we are not immune to the same temptations.
We shouldn’t go looking for sin in the lives of other believers, of course. But neither should we bury our head in the sand when it needs to be confronted. – Albert Lee
Father, help me live today
With thoughtfulness in what I say,
Confronting wrong with truth and fact,
Expressing gentleness and tact. – Hess
READ: 2 Samuel 12:1-14
Slander seeks to destroy; rebuke seeks to restore.
The Bible in one year:
• Genesis 23-24
• Matthew 7
kahapon...what did i do yesterday? hehehe..wala lang! i woke up around 12nn. nahalata na bang sabik ako sa tulog? then bumaba sa salas, umupo, watched tv. then nung umalis sina ate naligo na ako.. at eto,. sa katangahan ko kasi di pantay patilya ko, sinubukan kong pantayin kasi nagshave ako. but then, accident happened. hay. nasugatan ako sa right side. tsk tsk. ang hapdi! waaa... so un. nagdudugo cya kahapon and ang sakit. so after kong maligo, my tumutulong dugo sa aking kanang pisngi. huhhu.. then after kong makapag ayos, i went to Sm megamall. dapat sa shangrila kasi my gusto akong shoes dun. but then i decided not to buy that shoes but instead buy the hard disk this week. so kailangan ng konting tipid. so when i reached SM Megamall, daming tao cyempre,. ang hahanapin ko lang naman is yung damit na pedeng panregalo kay kuya jimmy. kasi ung first gift ko sa kanya is mejo malaki daw, so sabi ko akin na lang ung binigay ko and im gonna give him new one na lang. soo yun nga, and nakakita naman ako ng polo shirt! hehehe.. ang dapat na isa lang naging 2. green sa kanya, red naman sa kin. then nung nag ikot pa ko sa mall, my nakita akogn long sleeves, nacutan ako sa kanya so i decided to bought it. so pagpasok ng bagogn taon, pito o walong shirts ata ang nabili ko., dahil sa gusto ko lang, i admit taht im an impulsive buyer. lalo na pag my pera akong hawak. sigh.
so after nun, nag-grocery naman ako ng food stock ko d2 sa office sa may supermarket. and ginamit ko ung last piece ng gift check ko but nag add pa din ako. hehehe.. so nung umuwi ako, nagpaalam ako kay ate na yung malaking cabinet sa kwarto yung gagamitin ko. ang nakalagay lang naman dun is ung mga kobre kama. and she agreed, so i asked yung kasama namin sa bahay na ayusin yung paglilipatan. yung dati kong 2 cabinet ang magiging bagong tahanan ng mga kobre kama at ako, yung malaking cabinet na. hehehe.
nakakapagod din maglipat. mag ayos ng damit. hay. naayos ko na naman ung mga damit ko. gagawan ko na lang ng lock maya, bibili ako., hehehe..
update:
kaya pala ako naglolock ng cabinet kasi nawala yung 2 kong boxer shorts. di ko alam sino kumuha.. hay..
so after nun, nag-grocery naman ako ng food stock ko d2 sa office sa may supermarket. and ginamit ko ung last piece ng gift check ko but nag add pa din ako. hehehe.. so nung umuwi ako, nagpaalam ako kay ate na yung malaking cabinet sa kwarto yung gagamitin ko. ang nakalagay lang naman dun is ung mga kobre kama. and she agreed, so i asked yung kasama namin sa bahay na ayusin yung paglilipatan. yung dati kong 2 cabinet ang magiging bagong tahanan ng mga kobre kama at ako, yung malaking cabinet na. hehehe.
nakakapagod din maglipat. mag ayos ng damit. hay. naayos ko na naman ung mga damit ko. gagawan ko na lang ng lock maya, bibili ako., hehehe..
update:
kaya pala ako naglolock ng cabinet kasi nawala yung 2 kong boxer shorts. di ko alam sino kumuha.. hay..
[Jesus said,] "I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish." – John 10:28
Late one afternoon I stood at the stern of a ferry boat churning its way from New York City across the Hudson River to New Jersey. As the towering structures of Manhattan receded from sight, my mind suddenly recalled these words from a poem: "These all shall perish stone on stone, but not Thy kingdom nor Thy throne."
A few years later the devastating terrorist attack on the World Trade Center left an ugly gap in that soaring skyline. Everything in the world around us is subject to decline. Beautiful flowers wither and die. Even California’s towering sequioas, hardy survivors for long centuries, are gradually being eaten away by the gnawing tooth of time.
As for our bodies, we grow older daily and lose the vitality of our younger years. God alone possesses immortality in Himself, which means that He abides forever (1 Tim. 6:16). The simple truth must be faced that nothing is permanent – only God is everlasting.
Yet by faith in Jesus Christ, we can receive life that will never end. He promised us, "I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; neither shall anyone snatch them out of My hand . . . and no one is able to snatch them out of My Father’s hand" (John 10:28-29). – Vernon Grounds
Immortal, invisible, God only wise,
In light inaccessible hid from our eyes,
Most blessed, most glorious, the Ancient of Days,
Almighty, victorious – Thy great name we praise. – Smith
READ: 1 Timothy 6:13-16
To give your life to Christ now is to keep it forever.
The Bible in one year:
• Genesis 20-22
• Matthew 6:19-34
nakita ko lang itong post na ito, naka DRAFT. one month ago na. hehehe.. ENJOY READING!
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nakarating na rin ako sa BAGUiO ng may isip na ko. dati kasi i just saw pics of me in baguio and wala pa kong muwang sa mundo nun. so at last nung my nag aya - go lang ako. and ang plan is right after the christmas party ng Team. so when i went in the office for the team christmas party, dala ko na rin yung bag ko na mga damit ang laman then ate jo "texted" me na hindi na raw matutuloy then sabi ko salamat naman dahil dala ko na lahat ng gamit ko. but then when we were in the party we all decided to push through with our plan and finally natuloy nga. kaya ako napapunta sa bahay nina ate jo at napagkamalang "bufren" nya. hehehe.. so yun, bumalik kami ng makati dahil nandito yung sasakyan namin, nirent lang cya na REVO. since 8 7 lang kami minus the driver. so first stop talga is pangasinan since wala pang nakarating ng baguio sa min (most of us) we decided to go through baguio nung nasa daan na kami and tulog kami kung tulog. hay ang hirap ng pagod. di ko alam nakakatulog na pala ako. nakaalis kami ng manila mga past 3 am na. nakalabas ng toll gate officially, then before nun nagpagas pa kami ng 500 lang. hehehe.. nakarating kami sa bundok este part ng baguio mga 6 am na. mejo foggy cya kasi umulan nga sa manila di ba? so yun, nakakatuwa kasi ang hamog then ang ganda pa ng scenery. hay.. sarap my kayakap! wahahaha... then eto lang ang nakakatakot. sa bwat pag ikot ng sasakyan, bawat right turn or left turn hindi mo alam kung kakanan ka ba or kakaliwa, habang pataas kami ng pataas mas lalong nakakatakot. pag lumiko ka kasi hindi mo alam kung san pababa ba, pakanan or pakaliwa yung daan. hehhee.. tapos my mga bus and mga truck pa kaming kasabay, so yun yung nakakatakot. then nung nakalagpas na kami sa my tunnel, nawalan na kami ng gas, kasi naman hindi naman kasi talga baguio ang puntirya namin eh hindi rin naman sinabi ni kuya na dapat na kaming magpa gas., so mejo my pagpapanic na nagaganap sa loob, so we told the driver to stop on one house and maybe they are selling gasolines. but then he did not follow our request. he just kept on driving and this time only usign battery of the car to continue driving on the road. ang tagal din namin sa ganun at ang itim na ng usok ng sasakyan. at ng may nakita kaming petron, ayun! nagpalakpakan kami lahat kasi sa wakas hindi na kami matatakot sa gitna ng bundok. hehehe.. nakakatakot din magtulak dun eh. hehehe..
sa Pancake house na kami nag breakfast and thank you sa mga nanlibre at hindi na kami pinagbayad! hehehe.. tenks adn tenks.. :D
bumili na rin kami ng mapa sa gas station after naming kumain, Petron ulit, then minarkahan na namin ang mga pupuntahan namin and we only alloted 30 minutes per place so that we can go down out of baguio by afternoon.
First Stop: The Mansion.
Cyempre ang gagawin lang naman namin dito is magpapicture. hindi naman pede pumasok,. nakakapagod lang tumalon kasi hidni namin makuha yung sabay sabay kami nakatalon. so mejo effort din para lng maperfect.
Second Stop: Botanical Garden
dito na rin kami nakapagpapicture together with the igorot. and they charge 10 pesos per person, we had two shots with them. and the 10 igorots became 11. then we paid the one person with 100 bucks then the other are still asking for our payment. thanks to ate russ she speak their language and they understand each other and agreed that we already paid them to one of their members, then we entered the boatanical garden and have some pictures again. and we also bought some pasalubongs cause were not going to market anymore. hehehe.. all of us has a bag of pasalubong.
Third Stop: Bell Garden
mejo naligaw ligaw kami sa pagpunta sa Bell garden dahil nakakahilo yung daan sa BAGUIO! hay.. or magulo lang yung map na nabili namin! huminto rin kami sa session road para mag CR yung iba naming kasama and we took the opportunity na magpapicture na naman sa daan! wahahah.. walang patawad.. then nakarating din kami sa Bell Garden after ng maraming liko at ilagn u turn na aming ginawa. but it was close. so we didnt have the chance to see whats inside. but nagpapicture pa rin kami. hehehe.. picture addict!
last Stop: Grotto
from Bell Church, diretso na kami sa grotto, and ako na dapat magbabantay sa daan at nasa akin ang mapa eh nakatulog din dahil sa sobrang tahimik sa loob ng sasakyan dahil natutulog din sila. so nagising na lang ako nasa isang daan kami sa looban at mali ang napasukan, so balik kami sa main road sabi ko pa kaliwa diretso lang. yun pala mali! dapat kanan! di ko kasi agad makita yung sementryo sa mapa eh! hay, mapa naman talga oh! hehehe.. buti na lang nagising na ulit si ate russ and tinuro nya na yung daan and bumalik kami and nakita na namin yung grotto. bale 3 lang kaming umakyat
im done with my new lay out. i finished it first before im going to start the project given to me a while ago. deadline EOD next monday. but im happy with the new look of my blog. hay.. :)
fulfilled. :)
pagkauwi ko kagabi and after i had dinner, naligo na ko and prepared myself to sleep. pero magkatext pa kami ni "k" nun. so yun. after kong maligo i went to the room and stayed up coz i read the bible pa. mejo matagal na kong di nakapagbasa and nwala na rin sa memory ko yung huling binasa ko. hay, kasalanan na naman. so yun, while reading the bible katext ko pa rin si "k". mejo matagal din kaming nagtext and huli kong send ng di ko namalayang nakatulog na pala ko. kasi while reading the bible, mejo inaantok na ko. so i stopped reading and turned off the lights in the room and i close my eyes na para makatulog. kakahintay ng reply nakatulog ako, nung naalimpungatan ako ng 1 am, my reply na cya. pero still groggy pa rin, i continued my sleep.
so un, mejo maganda yung tulog ko. actually, ewan ko ba, pero i admit na everytime i read the bible before i sleep, maganda yung nagiging tulog ko. i dont know if i said that before, but that is the truth. kaya lang yung panaginip ko, hindi ko alam bkit nagka ganun.. eto cya..
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as i remember, i saw my father daw. then i wanted to commit suicide. i dont know why nga eh.
then im crying hard na daw and talking to God. then ung phone ko nagbeep, my message daw ako. and then yung message from God. gugustuhin ko daw ba na mawala si "k" sa kin and mapunta sa isang friend ko. so i decided not to continue my plan of commiting suicide. then i search for her daw. nung nakita ko cya, (actually di ko pa cya namemeet personally), nagulat daw ako kasi medyo iba yung hitsura nya, iba meaning parang mejo nag iba from what i imagine na hitsura nya. but then nung nakita ko na daw cya, hinug ko daw cya ng mahigpit na mahigpit. then im crying na naman! waaa... pero this time happy ako kasi nakita ko nga daw cya. and sobrang tight nugn hug ko sa kanya. and i know that im so happy inside. tapos parang nagpunta kami sa isang lugar. parang sa tita ko., then my monster daw na lumabas.. at eto ang nakakatuwa. naging si red mask daw ako! wahahaha.. (hay, maskman! kailan ba kita makakalimutan) hehehe.. so yun nga, sabi ko daw kay "k" dun lang cya sa loob ng house and wag lalabas. but then nakidnap cya nung kalaban namin, and cyempre we searched for her and we saw her naman eh., and then un, my monster na lumaki but then natalo pa rin namin sila. yep! my kasama ako. dahil lima ang bida sa maskman. hehehe.. after nun, nung nakita ko ulit si "k". i bought daw lahat ng gusto kong gifts para sa kanya. kinuha ko na lang daw dun sa pinagorderan ko, and nung magbabayad na ko dahil sa dami ng binili ko, hindi ko na rin daw madala, sabi ko sa nagtitinda ang mahal naman pero ok lang, sabi ko pa wala ng natira sa pera ko. but ok lang as long as nabigay ko ung gusto ko. so un nga. that was the last thing i remembered from my dream.
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and un, nag alarmed yung phone ko ng 7:30 but then bumangon ako ng before 9,. ang sarap matulog eh tska wala na namang project na naghihintay sa kin dahil natapos ko na kahapon. then nakita ko sa phone ko yung last message ni "k" and yung message nung friend ko. na nandun din sa panaginip. tsk tsk.. so un, habang papasok ako sa office magakatext pa rin kami, i said sorry kasi nakatulugan ko ung pakikipagtext sa kanya. and i asked her na rin kanina kung my plan cyang makipag meet na. and the answer "di pa nya alam". so yun.
dumating ako sa office before 10:30. meron akong proj na na-assigned,. but i passed it na. 30 minutes ko lang ginwa. my codes na naman eh.. hehehe..
un lang. ung lay out ko. cguro same pa rin. color lang ung magbabago.. i want it simple eh. :)
so un, mejo maganda yung tulog ko. actually, ewan ko ba, pero i admit na everytime i read the bible before i sleep, maganda yung nagiging tulog ko. i dont know if i said that before, but that is the truth. kaya lang yung panaginip ko, hindi ko alam bkit nagka ganun.. eto cya..
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as i remember, i saw my father daw. then i wanted to commit suicide. i dont know why nga eh.
then im crying hard na daw and talking to God. then ung phone ko nagbeep, my message daw ako. and then yung message from God. gugustuhin ko daw ba na mawala si "k" sa kin and mapunta sa isang friend ko. so i decided not to continue my plan of commiting suicide. then i search for her daw. nung nakita ko cya, (actually di ko pa cya namemeet personally), nagulat daw ako kasi medyo iba yung hitsura nya, iba meaning parang mejo nag iba from what i imagine na hitsura nya. but then nung nakita ko na daw cya, hinug ko daw cya ng mahigpit na mahigpit. then im crying na naman! waaa... pero this time happy ako kasi nakita ko nga daw cya. and sobrang tight nugn hug ko sa kanya. and i know that im so happy inside. tapos parang nagpunta kami sa isang lugar. parang sa tita ko., then my monster daw na lumabas.. at eto ang nakakatuwa. naging si red mask daw ako! wahahaha.. (hay, maskman! kailan ba kita makakalimutan) hehehe.. so yun nga, sabi ko daw kay "k" dun lang cya sa loob ng house and wag lalabas. but then nakidnap cya nung kalaban namin, and cyempre we searched for her and we saw her naman eh., and then un, my monster na lumaki but then natalo pa rin namin sila. yep! my kasama ako. dahil lima ang bida sa maskman. hehehe.. after nun, nung nakita ko ulit si "k". i bought daw lahat ng gusto kong gifts para sa kanya. kinuha ko na lang daw dun sa pinagorderan ko, and nung magbabayad na ko dahil sa dami ng binili ko, hindi ko na rin daw madala, sabi ko sa nagtitinda ang mahal naman pero ok lang, sabi ko pa wala ng natira sa pera ko. but ok lang as long as nabigay ko ung gusto ko. so un nga. that was the last thing i remembered from my dream.
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and un, nag alarmed yung phone ko ng 7:30 but then bumangon ako ng before 9,. ang sarap matulog eh tska wala na namang project na naghihintay sa kin dahil natapos ko na kahapon. then nakita ko sa phone ko yung last message ni "k" and yung message nung friend ko. na nandun din sa panaginip. tsk tsk.. so un, habang papasok ako sa office magakatext pa rin kami, i said sorry kasi nakatulugan ko ung pakikipagtext sa kanya. and i asked her na rin kanina kung my plan cyang makipag meet na. and the answer "di pa nya alam". so yun.
dumating ako sa office before 10:30. meron akong proj na na-assigned,. but i passed it na. 30 minutes ko lang ginwa. my codes na naman eh.. hehehe..
un lang. ung lay out ko. cguro same pa rin. color lang ung magbabago.. i want it simple eh. :)
Being in torments in Hades, he lifted up his eyes. – Luke 16:23
Last time I checked, nobody likes having problems – problems with money, problems with cars, problems with computers, problems with people, problems with health. We would all prefer a life with as few difficulties as possible.
So, if you were to offer people the choice between (1) a future totally free of problems, sorrow, tears, and pain, and (2) a future full of pain, suffering, regret, and anguish – they would choose option one, right?
Jesus died on the cross to give us opportunity to experience that option. If we repent of our sins and trust Him as our Savior. He has promised us a life of fellowship with God in a place the Bible calls heaven. A place with no problems. A place where there are no more tears.
People living in a problem-filled world ought to be standing in line to grab that offer. Unfortunately, many haven’t heard the good news; others have refused to trust Christ. When people die without Jesus, it’s too late to take the offer, and they go to a place of torment the Bible calls hell.
Do you hate trouble and pain? Turn to Jesus and accept His offer of forgiveness. Your problems in this world won’t disappear, but you’ll reserve a home in heaven – a place of eternal joy and peace with God. – Dave Branon
Jesus is calling, "Today you must choose!"
If you delay, you surely will lose;
Listening now, you can hear the Lord’s voice,
Take His salvation – make heaven your choice! – Hess
READ: Luke 16:19-31
You must accept God’s Son today if you want to live in heaven’s sunshine tomorrow.
The Bible in one year:
• Genesis 13-15
• Matthew 5:1-26
im designing new lay out tulad ng nasabi ko na. ngayon, 8:20 na pero d2 pa rin ako sa office, dapat 8 nag out na ko., late ako pumasok kanina, dahil sa 9:30 na ko bumangon sa higaan, mejo nalalate ako nitong mga nagdaang araw, dahil hindi nagiging maganda ang aking pagtulog sa gabi. i dont know the reason naman why. so, un nga. ung header ko nagawa ko na kanina. yung template mismo ginagawa ko pa. cguro matapos ko cya before next week end. so un lang. uwi na ko..
ingat kau! :D
thats the count of defects i had in my previous work. sigh. ngayon na lang ulit ako nagkaroon ng maraming defects. the reason behind is hindi ako gumawa ng mga test inputs ko na usually ko ng ginagwa to reduce defects and it works naman for me. minimal of 1 defect na sa mga project ko. pero dahil nga sa christmas season, tinamad ako and i did not do any test inputs. so nung tinest ko ung map ko, isang input lang yung nilaro laro ko for the conditions. and today, i received the email, the status report. so un nga, i have 7 defects. kahapon gumawa na ko ng test inputs ko, and i reached 100 plus test inputs for my map. dami no? well, at least alam ko na gagana na un. so yun. kanina ginawa ko na ung mga defects. and nung second pass ko, wala ng problema. di ba? dahil sa katamaran ko, nag suffer pa yung proj ko. hay. anyways, ill try to do new layout.
next week, naka leave ako ng 2 days. Thrusday and Friday. hindi ako papasok, nagfile na ko ng leave ko kanina. :)
Let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. – James 1:6
Adoniram Judson (1788-1850) was gifted with a brilliant mind. He learned to read at age 3, could translate Greek at 12, and enrolled in Brown University when he was 16. While there he was befriended by Jacob Eames, a man who rejected the miracles of the Bible. When Judson graduated as valedictorian in 1807, he had been so influenced by Eames that he denied his Christian faith.
One night, when Judson was staying at a village inn, he was disturbed by a man moaning in the next room. The following morning he asked the innkeeper about the ailing man. He was told that the man had died and that his name was Jacob Eames.
The startling coincidence of being near his friend at the point of his death stunned Judson. He felt compelled to search his own soul and to seek God’s pardon for denying his faith. From that point on, he began to live for the Lord. God led him to pioneer missionary work in Burma. At the end of his life, Adoniram could look back on a ministry that had planted dozens of churches and influenced thousands to become believers.
What kind of influence are we having on others? Do our lives encourage faith in the Savior, or do we cause others to doubt? – Dennis Fisher
We cannot live our lives alone,
For other lives we touch
Are either strengthened by our own
Or weakened just as much. – Anon.
READ: James 1-1-8
Your life either sheds light or casts a shadow.
The Bible in one year:
• Genesis 10-12
• Matthew 4
i looked on the sites in the net offering free feng shui or the like. and read on what is in store for me on the year 2007!
GENERAL
Creative, problem solver, imaginative, hyperactive worker and respected for its resourcefulness. Intuitive with ability in acquiring and holding on to things it values. Outward personality is certainly appealing, but below the surface there often abides a crafty and opportunist character. In financial matters, they are erratic, scrimping, cutting corners and budgeting carefully when money is scarce, but spending lavishly instead of saving in time of plenty.
This year will be an excellent one to smooth out all current affairs on the judicial plane. Also, it will allow to solve conflicts with the State, particularly with the tax administration. All that's related to foreign countries and travels could also be a factor of chance for you. - wala akong kasong tax evasion, okay? hehehe
First trimester - You may be very harsh with your mate, only seeing reasons for reproach in him (her). Beware of excessive intolerance! This uncompromising attitude may very well erect between you and your mate a wall that will be difficult to tear down. Single natives will have some difficulty finding their soul mates but can enjoy a very agreeable light-hearted amorous banter. - so walang love life! huhuuh
Second trimester - If you're single, you'll be prone to flirtation but not really ready to commit yourself seriously. In some cases, one must beware of the impact of the opposition between the planets Tham Lang and Tang Mon, a particularly difficult impact this time.
Third trimester - For the majority of you, this period will be positive: You'll be sensual and tender, and your spouse or mate will know how to take you to the seventh heaven. For some natives born in a Metal year, however, the star Quan Phu can provoke disputes. Beware not to let things degenerate. If you're a lonely heart, the period will prove favorable to an encounter; it will decidedly not be the time to play at being timid!
Fourth trimester - With this aspect of the planet Hong Loan, there'll be animation in your love life. ( ayan, my love life na daw ako! whahaha). Numerous lonely natives will indeed meet someone who will not leave them indifferent. For some of them, there will even be a very important encounter which may change their lives drastically and end up with a marriage. ( wala pa sa edad ko ang balak magpakasal, 4 na taon pa.)
CAREER
2007 is an year of recovery for you - an year filled with promising changes, good developments and new positions. If you are an employee, chances of a good promotion and a reasonable monetary increment are quite high. Some of you may even branch out into your own profession or business. Open minded approach towards new opportunities, strategic planning, sustained hard work and timely implementation will fetch you more rewards. Controlling your temper and becoming more flexible at work place should be your top priority, apart from staying motivated. Expect troubles in unexpected situations and practice perseverance.
If you have a male as your boss, consider yourself double lucky. - ano naman ito? lalaki ba talga?
In the meanwhile, stay out of trouble with your business partners, team associates and office politics of the employees. - hindi ako naghahabol ng kung anumang posisyon. ok?
Rats doing trading or in enertainment industry, beauty parlour, health accessories will do better. - this is my chance to be a singer! whahaha
MONEY
A rewarding year, as far as income is concerned. Some of you may attract windfall luck too. But do not get adventurous and get involved with risk-money. Read the fine prints deeply before signing up contracts and agreements. Stay away from illegal money transactions and unorthodox practices or else you could get into trouble with the long arms of the law. - ano naman yun?
HEALTH
Fatigue and lack of proper sleep due to workload will be a major concern. Indulge yourself with the crowds during the weekends (without overdoing it) and do some exercises when you find the time. Relax and unwind. Many of you will experience disorders related to stomach, intestines, digestive system, blood circulation and kidneys. It is high time to shift to quality food. - kakain na ba ko ng gulay? hay...
LOVE
Quality in personal relationships and new found friendships will bring joy and content. Activism in social circles will give you more strength and support. There will be many occasions to celebrate, including the addition of a new member to the family. Enjoy without over-burning yourself. As the "Flower of Romance" rules your Animal Sign, singles will be flooded with proposals. - ayan, ako na lang ang mamimili.. hahaha.. ako na lang daw ang magpapaligaw.. tsktsk
Use your head rather than your heart - eto ang ayaw ko! waaaa....
Consider yourself as blessed, if you are part of a joint family - cyempre naman!...
Good Relationships with : Rat, Dragon, Monkey, for 2007
ayan na..ano sa tingin nyo? malas ba ko or swerte sa taong ito? hehehe
This year will be an excellent one to smooth out all current affairs on the judicial plane. Also, it will allow to solve conflicts with the State, particularly with the tax administration. All that's related to foreign countries and travels could also be a factor of chance for you. - wala akong kasong tax evasion, okay? hehehe
First trimester - You may be very harsh with your mate, only seeing reasons for reproach in him (her). Beware of excessive intolerance! This uncompromising attitude may very well erect between you and your mate a wall that will be difficult to tear down. Single natives will have some difficulty finding their soul mates but can enjoy a very agreeable light-hearted amorous banter. - so walang love life! huhuuh
Second trimester - If you're single, you'll be prone to flirtation but not really ready to commit yourself seriously. In some cases, one must beware of the impact of the opposition between the planets Tham Lang and Tang Mon, a particularly difficult impact this time.
Third trimester - For the majority of you, this period will be positive: You'll be sensual and tender, and your spouse or mate will know how to take you to the seventh heaven. For some natives born in a Metal year, however, the star Quan Phu can provoke disputes. Beware not to let things degenerate. If you're a lonely heart, the period will prove favorable to an encounter; it will decidedly not be the time to play at being timid!
Fourth trimester - With this aspect of the planet Hong Loan, there'll be animation in your love life. ( ayan, my love life na daw ako! whahaha). Numerous lonely natives will indeed meet someone who will not leave them indifferent. For some of them, there will even be a very important encounter which may change their lives drastically and end up with a marriage. ( wala pa sa edad ko ang balak magpakasal, 4 na taon pa.)
CAREER
2007 is an year of recovery for you - an year filled with promising changes, good developments and new positions. If you are an employee, chances of a good promotion and a reasonable monetary increment are quite high. Some of you may even branch out into your own profession or business. Open minded approach towards new opportunities, strategic planning, sustained hard work and timely implementation will fetch you more rewards. Controlling your temper and becoming more flexible at work place should be your top priority, apart from staying motivated. Expect troubles in unexpected situations and practice perseverance.
If you have a male as your boss, consider yourself double lucky. - ano naman ito? lalaki ba talga?
In the meanwhile, stay out of trouble with your business partners, team associates and office politics of the employees. - hindi ako naghahabol ng kung anumang posisyon. ok?
Rats doing trading or in enertainment industry, beauty parlour, health accessories will do better. - this is my chance to be a singer! whahaha
MONEY
A rewarding year, as far as income is concerned. Some of you may attract windfall luck too. But do not get adventurous and get involved with risk-money. Read the fine prints deeply before signing up contracts and agreements. Stay away from illegal money transactions and unorthodox practices or else you could get into trouble with the long arms of the law. - ano naman yun?
HEALTH
Fatigue and lack of proper sleep due to workload will be a major concern. Indulge yourself with the crowds during the weekends (without overdoing it) and do some exercises when you find the time. Relax and unwind. Many of you will experience disorders related to stomach, intestines, digestive system, blood circulation and kidneys. It is high time to shift to quality food. - kakain na ba ko ng gulay? hay...
LOVE
Quality in personal relationships and new found friendships will bring joy and content. Activism in social circles will give you more strength and support. There will be many occasions to celebrate, including the addition of a new member to the family. Enjoy without over-burning yourself. As the "Flower of Romance" rules your Animal Sign, singles will be flooded with proposals. - ayan, ako na lang ang mamimili.. hahaha.. ako na lang daw ang magpapaligaw.. tsktsk
Use your head rather than your heart - eto ang ayaw ko! waaaa....
Consider yourself as blessed, if you are part of a joint family - cyempre naman!...
Good Relationships with : Rat, Dragon, Monkey, for 2007
ayan na..ano sa tingin nyo? malas ba ko or swerte sa taong ito? hehehe
Those who gladly received his word were baptized . . . . They continued daily in the apostles’ doctrine. – Acts 2:41-42
Someone has said that a committed Christian undergoes three conversions: "First to Christ, then to the church, and then back to the world."
We see an example in Acts 2 and 8. With their baptism, 3,000 people declared their conversion to Christ (2:4). Then they demonstrated their conversion to the church by devoting themselves to the teaching of the apostles and fellowshiping with other believers. "Having favor with all the people" (2:47) suggests they were also helping others. Later, when persecution scattered them, they "went everywhere preaching the word" (8:4). This was their conversion back to the world.
Conversion is first of all a commitment to Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior. This brings salvation. But once we know Jesus as our Savior, it is only natural to want to join a fellowship of others who share the same faith. "Lone-ranger" Christians – people who don’t want to get involved – tend either to slip back into their old ways or become smug and self-righteous.
Although fellowshiping with other believers is vital, there is more to our responsibility. We need to return to the world with compassion, loving deeds, kind words, and warm smiles. It takes only one conversion to be saved but all three to be what God wants us to be. – Herb Vander Lugt
Once we receive God’s saving grace
New life in Christ has just begun;
Then as we study, serve, and pray,
We’ll seek that others may be won. – D. De Haan
READ: Acts 2:38-47
The conversion of a soul is the miracle of a moment;
the growth of a saint is the task of a lifetime.
The Bible in one year:
• Genesis 7-9
• Matthew 3
gagawa sana ako ng bagong lay out ng blog ko kanina, kaya lang walang pumapasok na idea sa aking utak. wala akong ginawa nung hapon na dahil my query ako sa aking project ngayon, pero till now 7 pm wala pa rin sagot. sa antok ko, nakatulog ako sa cube ko around 5:30. buti na lang hindi ako nasita ni sir bong, hindi ko rin alam kung nakita nya ko, cya lang naman yung director namin at ang opisina nya ay katapat ng cube ko. pangalawang lane lang ako. ngayon, masakit ang ulo ko at parang nahihilo at nasusuka ako. hindi ko alam kung bkit? uminom lang naman ako ng isang venti size ng peppermint mocha sa starbucks. iyon ang unang baso ko ng starbucks sa taong ito. cgurado na pagdating ko ng bahay tulog ako agad nito.. hay..
woke up late cause of what we did yesterday. i opened my eyes at past 1 in the afternoon and still laid on my bed till past 2. then i went to my titas house and brought the ube/halaya. and then i stayed a little while and help them in the store, and refilled purified water for the customers. when i went back home, ate told me that we will go to the mall and bought gifts, and then i took a bath and were headed shangrila plaza mall, when we entered the mall we asked the guard till what time the mall is open and they told us 7 pm. so we were in a hurry to have all the gifts that we need. after we bought some gifts, ate left me at the mall and went to megamall. i followed her after all the gifts have been wrapped. we finished around 8:30 pm. then we headed back home. and while waiting kuya jimmy to fetch us, we stayed in starbucks and then my phone dropped at the floor! sigh.. but it is still working, but i have planned of buying a new one sooner. then when we reached the house, my nephews and nieces are all dressed and the planned to attend a mass around 10 pm is not possible cause there was no mass at that time, the sources told the press (joke!).. hehehe.. so we just went to my titas house and wait until new year came.
it was the usual new year, the way we celebrated it the past years, and when ate and my cousins wife throw coins composed of 5 peso coins, we were onto the floor all! hahaha..imagine me. well, i collected 285 pesos worth of 5 peso coins and now it is on my coin bank here at the office.
went home around 2 am and stayed at the living room and guarded the house from the insiders! hehehe.. it was the maid doing some miracles with the driver, so i stayed there and eat the fruits on the table, so when ate came home, i went upstairs and started my sleep. was a tiring one.. hehehe...
wheres my gift?
it was the usual new year, the way we celebrated it the past years, and when ate and my cousins wife throw coins composed of 5 peso coins, we were onto the floor all! hahaha..imagine me. well, i collected 285 pesos worth of 5 peso coins and now it is on my coin bank here at the office.
went home around 2 am and stayed at the living room and guarded the house from the insiders! hehehe.. it was the maid doing some miracles with the driver, so i stayed there and eat the fruits on the table, so when ate came home, i went upstairs and started my sleep. was a tiring one.. hehehe...
wheres my gift?
today is the 30th of december, just came home since yesterday. the reason is that i slept in the office. and then i only had 3-4 hours of sleep in a not so comfortable place so called "carpet" under my cube. anyways, woke up around 8 am then prepared things and shut down my pc ( which i will miss for 3 days ). after their shift (Val and Ate Goldie) we headed to SM Megamall and we watched "Kasal Kasali Kasalo" on its 11 am playtime Cinema 9. and thats the purpose of our gala today. ehehehe.. then after watching the movie, Ate Goldie left first because she has her own lakad, me and val were just together strolling inside the mall. we ate at Tokyo Teriyaki House by Tokyo Tokyo at the Foodcourt. but before that we went to department store and i bought tshirts which i didnt plan to buy. my plan was just to buy a gift, one gift for one person, but i ended buying myself four tshirts. thanks god that the 2 pcs of shirt are on sale, at least i can say that i saved money for that. hehehe.. then after eating lunch around 3:30 pm ( yes.. having lunch at 3:30 cause the movie ended i think past 1 pm). after we had lunch, we decided to watch another movie, this time Mano Po 5. but before that we went to Papemel to bought some gift stuffs (courtesy of val) for our officemates. we are at the cinema again around 4:15 and then we bought our tickets and just strolled again for the second time, but this time while waiting the time flies, we watched the garfield "mini fasion show", mini cause kids are the models. heheh.. cute! those synchronize steps of the little girls but the boys should have at least a poise while walking on the catwalk. we entered the cinema around 5 pm and watched trailers for the movies that will be shown next year. movie ended 7:30 after that we headed to cyberzone and i found external hard disk for only 4200 (130 or 160 GB i think).. hehehe... we'll be going to buy that next month using our SIP in our credit card. wahhaha.. i also canvassed the price of my target phone next year. sigh.. so many things i plan to buy next year. but for now, i need to be thrifty enough to buy all those things and be happy again! wahahaha..
Even what was made glorious had no glory in this respect, because of the glory that excels. – 2 Corinthians 3:10
In some ways the Mosaic law is to the Christian what a crutch is to an athlete. It is good when needed and used properly. But a crutch cannot be employed to win a 100-yard dash, nor can leaning on a system of legal statements ever bring us spiritual victory.
Paul emphasized the diminishing splendor of the Old Testament law by comparing it to the surpassing glory of life and liberty in the Spirit. Referring to Moses’ shining face after he had been given the Ten Commandments, the apostle likened the fading brightness of his countenance to the temporary and incomplete nature of the Sinai disclosures he had received. The people of Israel would soon discover that God’s message from the mount was also the standard by which they would be condemned.
Where the Holy Spirit reigns, however, there is abundant grace, and its splendor far exceeds that of the law. Imagine lighting a match in a completely dark place. The sudden burst of flame provides an impressive display of light. But if you struck a match in the presence of the noonday sun, its flickering rays would seem insignificant.
The commandments were demanding and ultimately they condemned; but life in the Spirit brings the experience of God’s transforming power into our heart. – Mat De Haan
The law in itself is pure and good
And shows to us which way is right,
But grace has a glory that excels,
Flooding our path with Christ’s true light. – Bosch
READ: 2 Corinthians 3:5-18
The diminishing splendor of the law is no match for the glory of God’s grace.
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